chimeraboo
Slowly But Surely
Nov 14, 2014
Weigh-in week 5:
300.8 lbs, 60% Body Fat
so I didn't hit my goal this week and I only lost 1.2 lbs, but I'm losing! Only 0.9 lbs to first goal! I need to learn to be at peace with the slow weight loss for now. It is somewhat out of my control. I am going to continue working the plan and getting my activity and vitamins in. It takes as long as it takes. My appetite has returned this week. I feel the physical hunger and I can get a lot more food down...but about 30 minutes after I stop eating I feel stuffed almost to the point of feeling sick, yet before this feeling comes, there is a gnawing hunger at the pit of my stomach that only seems more stimulated by food. ...food doesn't seem to get rid of it right away. I read somewhere that this feeling could be due to the bubbling up of acid at the bottom of my stomach. I'm going to try to take a tums or something to see if that helps. Mi do not want to over eat, even if it is just protein. Still learning here. I think I may start tracking my food this week to kind of get a benchmark of the amount of protein and calories I'm consuming. Next Friday I go see my psych, I can't wait. This whole journey so far has been an emotional roller coaster for me. I knew early on I needed to continue seeing the psych. A comment was posted earlier this week that I beat myself up... I don't think I do. I love me..but the frustration is real. You roll into surgery with a set of expectations about how everything will be post op and when everything doesn't happen as expected for you (but you are constantly reminded that it is happening for others). There is a level of disappointment and envy that occurs, at least for me. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE seeing people succeed, I just want that for myself too. I have to realize that my success might not look like someone else's. Anyways, until next time, God bless!
