Just a thought.........

Apr 03, 2011

         It's funny how things are...when you start your weight journey you tell yourself I will be happy to loose 20lbs or 30 lbs or whatever but when you get to that goal its not enough. 233lbs is the smallest I have ever been since I was a child a yet I feel large. People I haven't seen in a while are telling me I am skinny. Me skinny, I would have never thought that was possible. But I dont feel it, I dont know why? I should be happy and I am but there is still a part if me that wants to loose more and still feels that she is this hugh blob. I dont know maybe I am weird or something.
           My uncle passed away today from complications of being overweight he is only 60, that is young. He suffered alot from the time of his death and you could feel the tension from his family having to take care of him. I think that is what I fear the most I want to enjoy my life to the fulliest even at the end.  I guess that is the main reason why I began this journey.
           I sometimes wonder what it would be like to wear a bathing suit and not have to wear cover ups but i guess I should be happy that at least I am doing something about it. WE ALL ARE, we made a decision to put our health first and we are doing something about. I guess that is all that matters and I figured it out as I was typing my blog. Anyway have a blessed day and enjoy every moment , I will.

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