No Longer in the 200lb range....

Jan 23, 2010

So on my 2 month surgiversary, I weighed in at 199 lbs and I can not tell you how fantastic that feels. Through this roller coaster of issues and weight since I embarked on my weight loss journey in 2004, it is an amazing to feel like I am finally getting myself back.  Fat really does something to your brain, and how you look and feel about yourself.  It took me a long time with the help of therapy to have my brain catch up with my body when I lost my excess weight with the band.  To go from being fat pretty much all my life to finally being healthy and happy with the way that I looked, it took a long time to train my brain to say yes I am thin, I am no longer fat. Then years later after the slip, when the weight came back, it was the complete opposite, my brain still says Im thin, but when I look in the mirror, I am now fat again, that was crushing, and it really did a number on my self worth and self esteem.  To finally see that the weight is coming off and to know internally that this is a permanent change in my life, to know that FINALLY my brain and body will be in sync again.  I literally burst into tears as my husband hugged me last night.  I finally feel like I am getting myself back, I am rediscovering who I am, and God it feels amazing!! I have another 49 lbs to lose to meet my personal goal, who knows, maybe I will surpass that, but I surely want to meet it again and say hey... how ya been.... I missed you...

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