WOW I can't believe I have not been on here for 2 years

Apr 19, 2010

So I came back here because I need help and this place has always been helpful :)  I am 2 years 8 months post op and I have put back on 17 pounds.  I am so upset and ashamed of myself.  I need to get back in control of my eating. I truly feel like an addict!!!!!!!!  Hiding or sneaking food, making excuses as to why I can eat of that Dove chocolate and not having to go to the gym.  I am so scared that this will keep going and I will bet back up to 265 pounds :(  I was soooooo miserable then I don't want to go back to that.

Over the past 2 1/2 years I have done a lot of work on myself.  I was and still am in therapy.  Seems like being a fat kid and having divorced parents really scarred me for life, add in a severe case of PCOS and that spells obesity nightmare!!!!  I know that I have made a lot of progress with my physical and emotional health!!!!!!!!  I don't even recognize the person that I was in the pre-op pictures,  I don't know who she is and the sad thing is she didn't know either.  I do know who I am now and what I want out of life.  It is a daily struggle with food though.  It was so nice to not have to worry about food or obsess over dieting for the past 2 years, it appears that is now over. 

So I am back on here to get support and understanding from people who know and understand where I am.  I also hope to get motivation to get me back on track!!!!!

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