WOW BEEN A WHILE AGAIN...

Mar 30, 2012

WAS BACK ON DAMN PAIN MEDS FOR BACK PAIN AND LOST TOO MUCH WEIGHT! AGAIN!  DAMN NARCOTICS...THEY GONNA KILL ME...LOSE MY FULL APPETITE BEC OF THEM.  I AM TWO AND HALF WEEKS CLEAN AGAIN AND SMOKE FREE SAME TIME!  i ACTUALLY GAINED ABOUT 5 POUNDS THIS WEEK FORCING MYSELF TO EAT.  I WAS SO SO SICK FRAIL LOOKS LIKE SKIN HANGING ON BONES!  NO ENERGY AND MY BLOOD WORK CAME BACK SUPER MAL NOURISHED!  DR DID NOT WANT TO PUT ME ON FEEDING TUBE RIGHT NOW BEC HE SAID FROM SMOKING AND MEDS I MAY HAVE ULCER IN POUCH...HE WANTS TOO LOOK VIA ENDO SCOPE BUT SCARED I WILL NOT BE OK UNDER HEAVY SEDATION....SO WAITING TILL I GAIN SOME WEIGHT. ALSO IF I WERE TO GET INFECTION IN PIC LINE FEEDING TUBY ITS RIGHT ABOVE HEART I WOULD DIE...NO NOURISHMENT TOO MAL NOURISHED TO FIGHT OFF INFECTION...NOT TAKING ANY CHANCES  WAS 115LBS NOW 120LBS! AND GAINING...ITS NOT EASY. EVERYOINE BLAMES MY BY PASS BUT THEY ARE JUST NIEVE...ITS NOTHING TO DO WITH BYPASS ITS THE DRUGS FOR PAIN THAT KILLED APPETITE...I AM AN ADDICT! OFF ALL DRUGS AND SMOKES TWO AND HALF WEEKS THIS WEEK

HAVE APPOINTMENT TO SEE BACK SURGEON...HE NEEDS TO DO REVISION AND MOVE THE LEADS OVER IN MY THORACIC PART OF MY BACK SO I AN GET THE PAIN COVERAGE I DESIRE FROM MY MEDTRONIC PAIN BOX STIMULATOR!   I HOPE THIS WORKS AGAIN...WAS GREAT WHEN I HAD IT 1ST TIME NOW PAIN AND LEADS MUST HAVE SHIFTED!  BUT BOX WORKS GOOD WHEN IN CORRET PLACE. APPOINTMENT TO SEE SURGEON APRIL 18...THEN SET UP SURGERY DATE

WELL THATS PRETTY MUCH WHERE I AM TODAY...NOW GONNA DO SOME RESEARCH FOR MY DAD...HE DIABETIC OVER WEIGHT HEART CONDITION, SLEEP APNEA AND HIGH B/P!  HE WANTS ME TO LOOK INTO SLEEVE?

I KNOW I AM IN THE RIGHT PLACE...IF ANYONE CAN ANSWER QUESTIONS IT WOULD BE YOU GUYS!  I JUST HOPE DAD GOES THROUGH WITH SOMETHING...SO IT IMPROVES HIS HEALTH AND QUALITY OF LIFE FOR MANY YEARS TO COME.

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