inspiredbyhope
Yo-Yo dieter...always end up back where I started or HEAVIER! I am NOT asking to look like a Barbie Doll....Just fit into an average size pair of jeans WITH A ZIPPER! "Life is too short to wake up in the morning with REGRETS. And BELIEVE that everything happens for a REASON If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said that it would be easy. They just promised it would be worth it." 
Wow what will it be to own a pair of pants that are NOT stretch and actually have a button
and a zipper! DARE I DREAM!
My Name Is Robyn I will be 40 in June 2008
. I have been overweight & on diets my entire life. I remember being 8-10 years old & the pediatrician putting me on a "stop, go & caution" eating plan!
I recently married the worlds most loveable & handsome man. 
I have 4 of the greatest kids in the world (+ my step son) I count myself very lucky. 
I want 2 be able 2 enjoy my time I have here on earth with them. I cant do that while being out of breath & in pain due to excess weight.
I want 2 be able 2 get frisky wt my spouse without MY OWN PERSONAL hang ups getting in my way. He in NO way makes me feel like my weight should bother me but I do NOT feel comfortable in this body.
I was a dancer for15 yrs growing up and managed to eat everything I wanted and keep my weight under control.Since my 1st of 3 knee surgeries in 1982 I have stopped dancing & began the life of a yo-yo dieter.
I am on Meds 4 high B/P & high choles,have GERD, Hiatal Hernia, fatty Liver& I deal with a C Pap machine 4 sleep apnea (real romantic! argh!)
I want my life back!
Oh I 4got 2 mention I ws on the waiting list for this surgery about 7-8 yrs ago and I chickened out! NOT HAPPENING THIS TIME! I am tired of Dr's blaming EVERTHING for my obesity! If I get a chin hair I am told its because of my weight! argh!
OK DONT STOP READING NOW!!! You have come this far!
Read on to see some of my favorite quotes and poems! Some things you will find yourself shaking your head in an agreeing NOD!
So LOVE the people who treat you RIGHT, FORGET about the ones who don’t
~~"'Twas the Night Before Bypass'"~~
'Twas the night before bypass, when all through my gut
not a morsel was stirring, not even a nut.
The suitcase was packed by the back door with care,
in hopes that a new me would soon return there.
I lay nestled, snug in my bed
while visions of calories danced in my head;
and me in my plus size pajamas and wrap,
had just settled in for a long, restless nap.
When deep in my mind there arose such a clatter,
I sprang from my dreams to see what was the matter.
Away to my fridge I flew like a flash,
ripped open the door and drooled at the stash.
The moonlight reflecting off the beautiful snacks
gave a luster of radiance to all on the racks.
When, what to my wondering eyes should appear,
but an array of the comfort foods I hold so dear.
With a familiar feeling of all those I'd pick,
I thought in a moment I just might be sick.
More lovely than angels their voices they came,
and they whistled and shouted and called me by name;
"Now pizza, now French fries, now chocolate galore
on cheesecake, on ice cream, on donuts and more!"
From the tip of my tongue, to the end of my toe,
I will miss you all more than ever you'll know.
As an addict that shakes and stirs as he sits,
I'll mourn the loss of my delectable hits.
So back to my bed I went with great haste,
and settled back down with nary a taste.
And then in an instant, in pre-op I sat,
nervously waiting to no longer be fat.
As I sat deep in thought and adjusted my gown,
In came my surgeon in one single bound.
He was dressed all in scrubs, from his head to his feet
and he seemed very calm as he eyed me like meat.
He looked at my chart, with his scope gave a listen,
I don't think he noticed my eyes starting to glisten.
He was chubby and plump -- he could lose some himself,
and I laughed when I saw him in spite of myself.
A wink of his eye and a twist of his head,
soon gave me to know I had nothing to dread.
He spoke barely a word as he prepped for his work,
he paused for a moment, then turned with a jerk.
And laying a finger aside of his face,
and giving a nod, out of the room he did race.
He checked in the next day, to his students gave a whistle,
and away they all flew like a down of a thistle.
But I heard him exclaim as he walked out of sight,
"speedy thinness to you and a healthier life!"
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