One week til surgery and I have already cheated!

Jun 02, 2010

It is exactly one week til surgery and I already found an excuse to cheat on my 10 day diet. I have had a stressful week because I had run out of my meds (for bipolar disorder), had a stomach bug, and didn't sleep with my CPAP for several nights. That added up to me desperate for some comfort and I went to my go-to food, powered donettes. Whole bag and some milk. I am not going to lie, it felt good, real good, but I have all this guilt about sabotaging my diet and it makes me feel like I am not going to do well with the lap band.
I am hoping that the lap band will help not binge as much I can now. However, I have to make better food choices too or the weight will not go away. I have no trouble exercising, in fact I like it. But the food choices are going to be a problem I think. So here I am worrying again, even though it will do little good in the long run. I look forward to the surgery and I am trying to keep a positive outlook.

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