Keeks911
Frustrations are piling up...
Apr 20, 2015
I have been in a 6 month supervised weight loss program (per insurance) since November. Originally, starting this process, I thought I would have had the surgery already. Then came to terms that it would at least be 6 months. Well, my 6 months have come and gone. I was running out of time to get my surgery scheduled before it was nearly impossible to schedule due to scheduled vacations at work. The entire month of May someone is out of the office on vacation. We are already understaffed so I knew I couldn't take the time out for surgery in May. That being said, everyone I was working with knew this. April had to be the month. It was my 6th month of the supervised program and just seemed perfect.
I had my sleep study in January. I have had the worst experience with Willamette Sleep Center and a CPAP machine that I should have been on since then. When I finally got my surgeon consult, she asked me how my CPAP machine was doing. I just asked her, "what CPAP machine?". She then informed me that I needed to be on one for at least the week prior to surgery so April was out of the question. WHAT??!! I have been waiting for 6 months, busting my ass for 6 months and now I have to wait? June was the next option for time off from work. I have been round and round with Legacy and Willamette Sleep Center with my CPAP and who was going to actually going to go over the sleep study results with me. Legacy said Willamette would do it, Willamette said Legacy would do it. Come ON!
Finally get with Willamette and they go over the results with me, mild case of sleep apnea, news to me. They write a prescription for a CPAP machine, fax it over to Providence Home Medical Equipment. A week goes by. Nothing. I contacted Willamette today and they say that "it's been a week, have you called Providence?" OMG. Yes, I was on eternal hold so I hung up and called you. Well, try calling them again blah blah blah. I call and am on hold for 10 more minutes. Finally a nice man named Brian answers the phone. I give him my name and DOB, CAN'T FIND MY ORDER!! ARE YOU KIDDING ME??!!! I am so frustrated at this point, after I hang up the phone I start to cry. I feel so let down! Like I am doing my part in this but nothing else is working out! WTF.
So now, at this point, my tentative surgery on June 3rd might not work out. If I can't get on a CPAP and then have a month's worth of readings for the insurance to prove that I am in "compliance", I can't have my surgery when it's scheduled and it will have to be moved back even more. It will be months later as June is the ONLY other month this entire summer that doesn't have some one out of the office on vacation.
If I get my surgery in June, this will have been an 8 month process, just to get to surgery. I am now wondering if it's worth it. I have lost, officially per the Legacy scale, 35 lbs. Not that much in 6 months if you ask me, but apparently not too bad. I did reach my goal for weight loss. Can I do this on my own? My track record hasn't been very good for the last 40 years, who's to say I could be successful on my own. I probably could, but it definitely would take forever. It's been easier to tell myself that I don't want to eat something or shouldn't eat something or watch my serving sizes because I was working for a specific goal. 6 months is a long time, but I can bust my ass for 6 months. It will be so much easier after surgery, to be able to SEE the progress and weight loss. Right now, 35 lbs later, I still don't see it. Not one person has asked me if I have lost weight. Only a handful of people know that I am going to have surgery, so they ask how I am doing. But no one else I know has noticed. But really, if you have 442 rocks and you take 35 away, who is going to notice? My jeans fit better, or rather, they actually fit. That's the only thing I have noticed. I guess it's something.
I am so bummed right now. I'm going to go for a walk, maybe the will help a little.
Gah.
