Lunasweetz69
1st Fill Tomorrow!
Jun 28, 2010
So I'm super excited about tomorrow! I can't believe its already going to be June 29th! I have this crazy fear that my doc won't be able to find the port for whatever reason. Ok, lets be honest, I'm afraid I have a fat overlay that will require him to dig lol.
I am proud to say I'm back on track. After losing a little control at work, I got a grip, and went back to watching what I eat. Confession...I have had a bad couple of days, but I'm not eating nearly as much as it feels. My wt has dropped to 244, which I'm relieved. Hopefully that # won't jump up tomorrow bc I really don't want to walk into my docs office with my head hanging low. I really hope this fill gives me some good restriction. I'm fighting to keep the portions down.
So I got back into the gym today. I had a really good 30 min workout. 15min treadmill with incline (walking) and 15min on the death machine called the ArcTrainer. In 15min, I burned almost 200cal and dripping in sweat. I hate it and love it at the same time!
Bad juju happened. So my wonderful personal trainer Sean has been kinda missing for a lil bit. I asked our other friend/trainer to do a quick assessment to see how I'm doing since surgery. He rushed me and made me really uncomfortable. To make matter worse, even after losing some inches, he pretty much tells me "Its still BAD, but you have improved!" How about, "Way to go! You are getting there!" I swear, I felt like his shit on my efforts and progress. Sean would NEVER have left me feeling that shitty about my accomplishments. After being TOTALLY livid, I decided to fight back. I text him on my way home, thanked him for taking the time, and let him have it. I told him exactly what I thought of him and his tone. I even text Sean and let him know what a shit the other guy was. I think what sent me over the edge was when he said Sean isn't known for his accuracy in measurements. EXCUSE ME? Those measurements were careful and even Craig was there helping. You can kiss my lily white ass! I worked hard for my progress and no one and I mean NO ONE is going to shit on my parade! So yeah, I was not pleased.
Anyway, had a great day with my loving husband. After the gym, he cooked me breakfast, went shopping, and had a blast playing 5 games of bowling. I really should stick to the wii, bc I truly suckith! Even WITH bumpers, I couldn't break 100pts. Thats mortifiying!
Which gave me a great idea. Want to get some friends together for a fun night. Dinner at tailgators...awesome pub & grill...then a few games of bowling.
So thats it. I'm staying strong and standing up for myself.
I'm so nervous about tomorrow. I picked a hell of a day to get my 1st fill. I have my Twiligtathon tomorrow night with my Linz! I'm sOOOOO excited. Super dork extraordinare in the flesh! lol
