Lunasweetz69
Fighting thru the Plateau
Jun 17, 2011
As of this morning, I am 205.2lbs. I am happy with that # bc the #s r finally going down again. I have been stuck between 207.6-206.4lbs for a few wks. Since having to stop my personal training and working more, I have become complacent and lazy. This wk I have been better. I did Zumba twice and plan to keep on track. I really do enjoy those videos bc if I'm having fun, I'm not thinking about the pain...too much anyway.I had some big milestones as of late. I got into Lane Bryant size 14 jeans. I went into the Gap and closed size 16 jeans (they run super small!). I bought a size 16 bathing suit and actually look REALLY good in it. I have even seen my collarbones on a consistent basis. So I'm pretty excited! I am proud to say I am no longer embarrassed to take a full body picture. I remember my cropping skills saved me from pictures that made me want to vomit. I was always a breast & up picture taker. My 28th bday, I took some fun pics and I was very pleased with myself.
I can still see ONEderland. I just have to hunkerdown and just DO IT! I know I'm losing. I know I can do it. Just a strange feeling having to be accountable and not having anyone screaming at me to do something lol. I miss Sean entirely. But with my hubby's injury, its impossible to do right now.
I jog/walked 1 mi the other day. It felt good and horrible at the same time. I didn't help that it was hotter than hell outside. My coworker started jogging too. She is inspiring me. But until we can get thru the digusting summer, I think I will continue my workouts at home...for the most part!
I think the hardest thing right now is pushing thru the exhaustion.
One another note...I have discovered the ugly truth of being a former "super obese" beauty. I had not realized how much skin I have accumulated at my arms. It just hangs now. My arms r still big, but I can clearly see where the skin and I separate. I can knock someone out with my flappers! I am considering the skin removal surgery later, but the thought of the amt of pain scares me half to death!
I have to remember that I'm still beautiful, my boobs r still big & wonderful, and I have a shape I can be proud of...whats some extra skin??
