Lunasweetz69
Another big step!
Jul 28, 2010
I am thrilled to say I had another fill yesterday...thank goodness because I definitely hit a wall. But my big news was what I did Saturday. I sucked it up and took my first body pump class at the gym. When I walked in, I cringed at the perfect bodied trainers and the other people around me, but Craig was standing by my side. This girl next to me felt my anxiety and started talking to me. She really eased my fears and made me feel welcome. Apparently she was afraid at first too and is a total homebody like me. But she has become addicted to the classes, so there is hope for us couch potatoes. Anyway, it was the hardiest workout I have ever done, but it was AWESOME! The energy pumped me up and I wouldn't give up, even after I wanted to crawl up and die lol. I have to admit, towards the end, especially doing lunges, my body start to shake and I wanted to vomit, but I got thru it. Now the several days of pain after really sucked. I was afraid to climb curbs. I thought Paul was insane when he said that to me a few months back, but now I TOTALLY get it lol.I'm on my 24hr liquid diet post-fill. So far so good. I am going to attempt lunch with Linz and then a spa pedi. I wonder if I'm really more restricted. I had him prove to me there is no leak and to my embarassment...there wasn't. I'm just a hungry hungry hippo that felt wide open lol.
I have decided to seek some counseling. My emotions have been erratic. I have no idea if its truly connected to post-op, but I know I need the help. I wish I could just shut off my brain sometimes. I found myself crying in my car one day over something so small and stupid. That was my wake up call. I need to regain control of my emotions and maybe then I will regain control over my eating. I haven't lost. I actually gained 2lbs from my last visit, which is horrid. But today is a new day and I will kick some booty!
