Emotional Ups & Downs

Nov 02, 2010

Lately, I have been feeling like a lapband failure. I felt as if I should be farther along in my weight loss by now, but I was not anywhere near. So of course I felt down and sad. I was even afraid to see my surgeon today bc I felt like I was gonna feel the wrath of my failure with my popular doc who tells u how it is when u r failing lol. So I got there and I'm only down 2lbs since my last visit 2 months ago. But he did give me another 1cc. I am up to 8.5cc and on a 24h liquid diet. I hate doing that, but its necessary. Maybe I will get a really pleasant surprise in the morning.

Anyway, my biggest milestone is my measurements. I compared my March 22, 2010 measurements to Sept 23rd, 2010. I have lost an over 21.25inches! Thats incredible! I was absolutely dumbfounded by that finding. Everyone is telling me I look differet and I'm obviously wearing XL & 18, but I really couldn't see it. Now I have the justification!

This has just given me the strength to take my life to the next step. Dr. Turnquest gave me shit about not doing the sleeve because this is MUCH slower, but I feel it was really the right decision. There was a reason everything fell the way it did, so I am putting my trust in God to lead me down the right path!

So here is to the next 6wks! My goal is to try to lose 5-10lbs and a few more inches. I can do this! I want to leave the 240s FOREVER! I have been in this field wayyyy too long. So here is to the next challenge. I can do this!

I am getting my life back on track. My hormones feel like they have FINALLY resettled back to normal. Loestrin is the DEVIL! I'm kinda afraid to start my new triphasic pills. I will think about it.

Here is to the small milestones!

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