March 12 2012 - Jumping back on the Bandwagon

Mar 12, 2012

I first of all would like to give my sincerest apology for disappearing like I did back in Jan 2011.  After my granny passed away, I didn't want to do a thing, and then an aunt and a friend passed away in March 2011, making feel numb and finally the man I was involved with for 5 years, was seeing someone else at the same time all along. The latter I found out in Sept 2011.

So the wind in my sails was kind of knocked out there and I have been trying to find ME again.

I have been off work, since June 2011, due to my Fibromyalgia. My insurance company has set me up for an exercise regime, that will go for three months--I should say the membership is good for three months. I just got back from working out, and I am still waiting to start to feel better physically.  I started at the beginning of February and I had high ambitions about going 3x a week and kicking ass.  Well after my first workout there, I realized that that wasn't a realistic goal to start out with, so I changed it to twice a week.  I am disheartened though as I haven't seen or felt any changes. So this week I will go 3x and see what happens.

Of course while I had been off, being sedentary was my worst enemy. I have gained some of the weight back and that is making so scared that what I gained won't come off again.  I never did reach my final goal and that has also felt like a kick to the stomach.  It will be coming up to my 2ND surgiversary in June and I would so like to be much closer to goal.

Excuse the ranting and whining, but I just needed to put this out there and try to alleviate some stress.
Love you all

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