Scared

Dec 08, 2011

Got a call from Duke today, which shocked me since I just turned in my application last night online.  Their site says give them 30 days to process everything.

I'm scared. 

I think these days I'm more afraid of dying than I am complications.  About this time last year a girl I went to high school with died from a postop infection after having gastric bypass.  She had some kind of perforation in her intestines and went septic.  Sweet, sweet girl, left behind a husband and 3 beautiful kids.

I know the statistics, I know her death was a freak occurrence but it's still sobering.  Had she not had that surgery, she'd probably still be alive today.  Yes, she was overweight, but she was young and not in any danger of immediate death or anything. 

I know I'm being weird.  I didn't give it a second thought when I had my gall bladder removed, and the mortality rate for a cholecystectomy is only a fraction smaller than the mortality rate for gastric bypass.

I'll be ok. 

"I shall not die, but live, and declare the works of the Lord."  (Psalm 118:17)


Right?

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