need2bthin
I wonder...
May 10, 2010
I wonder what my thoughts will be a year from now? Now it is impatience. My thoughts are consumed with surgery. I can not help but wonder how my journey will be.I wonder, what size will I be? I am an 18 now. I grow yearly like I am adolescence, consistently 10 ponds. I wish I was still growing up and not out.
I wonder, what I will eat? I am usually pretty good until dinner. Then I shove what ever is convenient.
I wonder, will I have extra skin? It’s better than extra fat.
I wonder, will I become vein? I care about my appearance now, but with a smaller me, will I go overboard? I prayer that I am a living testimony, not full of vanity.
I wonder, will my shopping addiction become worst? Now that I am not spending so much money on food, will I now start spending more money on clothes? I am trying to learn from others experience and not spend so much money on clothes during the weight loss process. Will I require fewer clothes because everything fits better? I need to get this under control.
I wonder if my shoe size will change? I hope not!!! I love my shoes but would love an excuse to replenish. Good thing purses are not impacted by your size?
I wonder how my husband will adjust to the smaller me? He has known me when I was thin and watch me grow to be over fifty pounds heavier than he. Lord please allow us to adjust un-scathed. I thank God for a secure God fearing man.
I wonder what things will be new? Will I become a gym rat? Will I cut my hair?, Will I decide I need additional surgeries? Will dormant parts of my personality manifest?
What I do know is I see my future and I look and feel better than I do today!!!
