onlysunnydaysahead
First Class On Thursday - Mixed Emotions
Sep 15, 2014
It is with mixed emotions that I get ready for my first class Thursday. I am excited but also I find myself dwelling on... well myself. I am having trouble with eating and exercise on my own. It is tough for me because my husband only wants my tried and true meals of meatloaf, casseroles and steak. I on the other hand want to eat salad and fish. Also my 4yr old is food allergic. So I get lazy and do not want to cook 3 meals. Also, the more I think about it, the worse I feel about myself on a daily basis. I do have bi-polar issues and that plays a big part in emotion, especially when in public. I know I shouldn't feel this bad but it is tough to focus on the positive all of the time. I am hoping the classes will help my frame of mind and the way I think about myself. This weekend was great with out door activity and I am happy that Thursday is finally around the corner. Now if I could only get out of my own head and stop looking in the mirror for now. I do take the time to look at before and after pics of people on here and it is the smiling faces on the after pics and the happy posts I see about people years out of their own surgeries that keep me moving forward. Little by little I will get there! Oh, and I still have yet to take a before picture, I hate the camera, and right now it hates me too.
