Early morning post

Oct 09, 2014

I am getting anxious. I have 2 classes left and and a psych eval at the end of the month. In November we will be submitting approval for the surgeon. I am trying to mentally prepare myself just in case I am denied. I keep thinking that this is a shot in the dark. I was optimistic in the beginning but the closer I get to finding out and answer the more pessimistic I get. I have been working so hard to get to this day. I have even started to have dreams about actually going into surgery. I cant help but chuckle at this. I am going to continue to pray and do everything in my power get this surgery. I want to live. I want to be happy. Being overweight my whole life, this is kinda like the light at the end of the tunnel. I am very thankful for this website. Without it, I do not think I would be as informed about things as I am. I feel more prepared by talking to people on here. I have learned more on here from people first hand than anywhere else. I will have family support if I am able to have this surgery but I feel like it is also important to have other means of support in this journey. It would be nice to relate to someone who has been there or someone who may be having the same struggles and issues. Being overweight is the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with in my life. It has plagued me since early childhood. I feel like people try to relate to how I feel but one does not fully understand obesity until they have been there. It's more about just being fat. Ya know?

Well hopefully my next post on here will be titled APPROVED..LOL Until then guys, send good thoughts, vibes, and prayers..

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