A BALL OF EMOTIONS...with LITTLE support YAY ME!

Jan 12, 2014

So.... I am a ball of nerves right now.. I have worked really hard to get to this point and tomorrow is my pre- op appointment. I am scared, happy, afraid, sad, EXCITED but ready. My friend had the surgery in December and had a wonderful outcome.

I am more concerned because I feel like I do not have "real" family support. My sister(non-supportive). She actually suggested I try the Plexus Slim she sells and makes a profit selling. All of this coming from the same person that said she could only be able to come to the hospital if my surgery was on Friday..No surgeon does this type of surgery on Friday..My parents are way to mentally and emotionally unstable for to me to even dare to ask. I would simply be afraid of my mother running off the friends that will be there and care the most.. I cannot imagine doing this without my family but at the same time I don't care. I feel very thankful for my co-workers. Although, there are a few that are a bit opposed to the surgery, they support and respect my decision.. 

I am ready to take back control of MY life.

The fat chick I am right now is not ME.. I am literally a skinny chick trapped behind all this fat.. I know that I may never be the same 150lb person I once was BUT I can only hope with what I like to call this "NEW" lease one my life with this new tool..I can get it right this time.

 

 

 

I am hoping and more so praying by the time January 29th roles around it will go away...

 

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