Sirene
Honestly....
Mar 28, 2011
How often are we really truly honest with ourselves?I weighed myself this morning at the gym….the same.
I would like to say to myself…ok you have 4 days to weigh in so lets get in the gym and make every second count!! But the reality is that I actually say to myself, “You suck”
We had a support group meeting yesterday and a psychologist gave a very basic presentation on emotional issues that could potentially be applied to Obesity. Positive self talk was one of the things she talked about.
So rather than saying to myself, “You suck” and feeling guilty, hopeless and once again, like a failure, I am going to try to turn that around and make a positive statement of it.
BUT….in order to do that, I need to be completely honest with myself.
(ahh…see now it all comes together. It wasn’t just a string of random sentences from my Alice in Wonderland brain that had no connection to one another whatsoever!!)
So…if I am to be honest with myself…I need to ask myself some questions:
Am I doing everything I need to do to lose weight?
Do I weight and measure out my food?
Do I track every bite in my food journal?
Do I put 100% effort into my workout?
Am I doing everything I need to do to lose weight?
Well no. I used to walk on my lunch hours, and now I sit in Tim Horton’s with my friends. “It’s cold outside” has been my excuse. I imagine I will be soon be able to use “Its too hot outside” too
Do I weigh and measure out my food?
No. I used to. And I used to lose weight. I have a scale and measuring cups and spoons. Why don’t I do this anymore??
Do I track every bite in my food journal?
No. Again, I used to. And I used to lose weight. My goal for this week was to track everything and I lasted about a day.
Do I put 100% effort into my workout?
No. Soo many reasons but none of them really worthy…..all excuses
So if I know what I need to do to lose weight, and have done it in the past, why is it so hard to continue doing it?
I haven’t gained any weight…but I am not losing. I probably wont lose anymore either if I don’t go back to the beginning and start weighing, measuring, tracking and putting the effort in. One of the best sayings htat I learned from my WW meetings is this: If you ‘kinda’ do it, it kinda works. If you “really” do it, it really works.
I think I am just at that point where you start the whining and the “poor me”s….. Its not fair. Why do *I* have to work so hard and others don’t? What did I do to deserve this? Etc etc…all those thoughts running through my head.
I really wish the psychologist had come prepared to talk about these kinds of issues rather than laying the basic groundwork for a psych 101 class that probably most of us have already been to or at least touched on through our weight loss journeys. I guess I would rather hear from people who have lived through it and have concrete tips instead of the trite and kitchy phrases she possibly gleaned from the movie the Love Guru :)
*deep breath*
Ok… My rant is done.
Kudos to me today because:1- I did my workout today. I did a chest workout and then 20 minutes on the stationary bike. AND…2- I haven’t had a coffee yet today!!!!
13 Comments
About Me
Ottawa,
Location
26.6
BMI
Surgery
10/20/2011
Surgery Date
Dec 02, 2010
Member Since
