sparksofjupiter
almost two weeks post-op
Jan 26, 2013
Monday would be two weeks post-op for me. I have my nutritionist appointment that day!
Well, unfortunately I hit yet another stall. I went down to 194 and have been there for about two-three days now.
I made a few mistakes this week, mistakes i don't entirely regret, but now that I think about it...they weren't exactly the best ideas i've ever had...especially so early on.
Yesterday I gave in to temptation and did two very bad things. I had three cigarettes! On my drive home I vowed that because I could do a month without smoking then I can do it again. Given, it was only three as opposed to an entire pack and I didn't go off and buy a pack after so i'm proud of myself for not completely going backwards. I feel okay about it because i'm not itching for more now. If anything, i feel satisfied and moving on to another month of no smoking.
The other bad thing I did...My coworkers and I went to a restaurant, and I was planning on having mashed potatoes (i'm now in the purée phase), but unfortunately they didn't have any. Instead, I opted for mac and cheese from the kids menu. Honestly, I have read before that the option of ordering from the kids menu was a good idea, but i felt guilty for eating mac and cheese. then again, i had literally two bites, was full, and had to take the box home, then i had two more bites at home for dinner and couldn't go anymore. The mac and cheese part is what kills me! all i could think about was carbs, and fat, and bad, bad, bad!!! but it was delicious. i'm back now to being good but i hate that i couldn't resist freaking mac and cheese. I did remember how important it is to chew, i chewed it like a cow, just kept chewing until it was complete mush in my mouth haha.
sigh. I'm getting better at getting the protein in, i've been eating pureed chicken salad, and tuna salad, and had beans, etc. anything with protein already in it, but now its the liquids i'm having a hard time getting in.
I need to sign up for a support group meeting ASAP.
