sparksofjupiter
update! two months
Mar 24, 2013
So it's been a little over two months since my surgery.
There have been many many MANY trial and errors! I have been doing well with getting in at least one full protein shake a day, and adding more vegetables and other sources of protein such as chicken, steak, turkey, etc.
I have fallen off the wagon quite a bit, for example, CARBS! the evil thing called carbs!!! given, if i do have any carb intake it wouldn't even be more than two bites and i'll call it quits. i became aware of the mishap i was succumbing myself to and started cutting down on that once again.
I've noticed I haven't lost any actual scale weight in weeks, but i am physically still losing inches, which is beyond me. i'm probably a size 13 now, which is unheard of to me!!! i haven't been anything below a 16 in years.
still, i need to keep focused. i have started drinking again, but very very rarely and i won't have much more than one drink and absolutely no mixed, or carbonated. i used to be obsessed with beer, i tasted it, loved it again, but quickly felt the bubbles just destroying me inside. i couldn't take it. same with soda. those bubbles, man.
so wine, and straight up whiskey have become my best friend. no shots, they'll seriously make you feel terrible (well me at least), and i've finally understood to make sure to PACE MYSELF. Eat first, wait the damn 30-40 minutes, THEN DRINK, and this goes for anything, water, alcohol, just be patient.
yes, i've gone backwards for eating carbs, and drinking, but i've pulled myself back, and learned to control it more than ever. if i ever see carbs, i become aware of how worthless it would be to eat it as opposed to something healthier, i know my limits not more than before the surgery and actually use them to my advantage. at first, i would fight them, now i embrace them. yes, i am not perfect, but i let myself live a normal life where i don't feel strained or anxious for not being able to have that one fry or that one piece of chocolate. i let myself have a taste of these things, not daily of course, but sporadically, and right when i have the taste, i am completely satisfied and move on to my regular plan and meals. the beauty of it is i dont sit around and think up amazing and huge meals i can conjure up and then feel anxious and restricted and succumb to those desires and completely ruin everything. all in all, i am so happy about this.
i know in due time i'll start losing weight, as in scale weight, again. another thing i need to really get on is the physical activity. i'm going to nyc on monday, thank god i'll be walking all over the place, should be a great kickstart to me being more active when i get back five days later. i'm very excited about this because it's opened me up to so many new life plans! i just have to DO IT!!!
i hope everyone is having a fantastic experience! bumps in the road have to be normal, i have to have faith in that.
i'll post up new pics shortly.
