19 Months Out

Jan 16, 2014

Wow Blog! 19 amazing, crazy months.  I am down 204 lbs with 5 lbs to go.

Divorce is still processing.  It's a slow but steady process.  We are toxic for each other and we need to go our separate ways.  Having a special needs child just adds time to the process.  Truth be told, I don't hate Christopher. I actually love him but I love him like a cousin.  What I mean is, I have to love him because he's family but I wouldn't choose him as a friend.  I can't just leave him out in the cold homeless.  I also can't leave my step daughter without insurance.  So, my life remains complicated and we remain married on paper.

I was in a car accident that was not my fault in December 20th.  I ended up with a concussion and alot of back and neck pain.  I managed to basically ruin Christmas for my children.  My insurance company is a pain in the rear and they are not working with me nor are the cooperating with my lawyer. 

After the accident I passed out in a parking lot on January 5th.  The MRI was inconclusive, all my blood work all came back normal. Uggh is all I can say.

Due to all this chaos, my skin surgery was canceled.  The surgeon's office staff was less than helpful so I changed surgeons.  My new surgery date with my new surgeon is on March 12th.  Less than 2 months away.

The kids are out of control with attitudes.  My youngest (special needs child) was horrible over the past few weeks to the point where I was considering putting her into a residential facility.  I'm sure it was the holiday stress and the stress with my car accident and I'm glad that things are getting better. My oldest has hit the "dreaded teen years".  It was like an overnight change.  One day she was my little baby all happy and innocent and the next day she was this evil, manipulative, lying, swearing, thieving, rude specimen from Hades. Both of them are going to get a real lesson on earning priviliges and giving adults proper respect.

I've noticed with all this stress that my eating habits have sort of slid to poor choices.  I'm hoping as some of the stress leaves my life then I can focus on getting back on track.  At this point I can't handle anymore! I can't exercize because of my extra skin so I'm just hanging out and getting lazy trying not to gain weight.

8 weeks from yesterday until surgery.  I have some upcoming events to keep me busy.  On the February 13th I leave for Atlanta, Georgia and come back on February 17th, this is for my daughters cheerleading.  Then I leave on March 5th and come back March 9th from San Antonio, Texas, this is for work but it should be fun.

Thats all for now! Good Luck on your Journey!

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