Teetering

Dec 17, 2009

My BMI is now 30.0

I'm teetering on the edge of being obese and just being overweight by that standard.  There is no way in hell at this size that I feel even remotely obese.  Are the BMI charts realistic?  I did have one day of weighing 174.6 which would put me under 30 BMI but that was short lived :-)  I can't really count a new low weight until I'm there for at least 2 days in a row.  It kind of bugs me that weight is so finicky and fluctuates a little every day, but it is what it is and I'd much rather be 175 than 269 anyday.

On another note, I love shopping!  Okay, that's nothing new.  But I have discovered that how I feel during the day is somewhat related to how I dress.  If my clothes are more fitted and I feel "thin" in them, I'm more confident in myself.  So now I don't want to wear anything too big or baggy.  Weird because I always bought shirts a little larger than necessary just so the fabric wouldn't touch or cling to my fat.  I thought that if my fat rolls weren't visible then I didn't look so bad.  Little did I realize they truly were visible and I walked around looking like I was wearing a tent.  Just this morning I pulled a sweater out of my closet.  When I bought it I never tried it on (big mistake), I just thought it looked kinda of clingy so I'll buy an XL.  Wrong!  I put it on this morning, way too big....it hung on me like a flour sack.  So, yet another shirt goes in the give away box.  It took me 3 tries to finally find a shirt to wear.  Okay, so we shopped at Old Navy this weekend.  My daughter talked me into buying a striped shirt.  A striped shirt!  At first I was so against it but she kept telling me it would look good.  Damn!  She's right, it does look good!

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