Why I'm here

Feb 27, 2013

If anyone has paid attention to my Facebook in the past few years, they will notice how rarely I've been uploading photos of myself - at least compared to when I was thinner. 

I always try to pick the pictures where I think I look good. I photoshop (mostly cropping out my "problem areas") to find the most flattering poses of my less photogenic self. 

But, let's be honest; no matter what I can't hide the fact I've gained a significant amount of weight since high school. 

I still cannot quite believe I am morbidly obese. My BMI is around 44, and I have a plethora of health problems, including:
Severe obstructive sleep apnea
PCOS
Pre diabetes
High cholesterol

These are not really because of being overweight:
Anxiety
Depression
Asthma
Allergies

Some other inconveniences related to my weight are:
Stretch marks
Hard to bend down
Always hot
Don't dress up/do makeup
No interest in dating
Lack of energy

As I’ve started telling people about my surgery plans, one of the first things that people ask me is “Wait, have you tried _____ diet/supplement/shake?” People who have never been severely obese tend to think I should have the self control to lose weight without the help.

Honestly, I’m DONE “trying” things. I've tried Weight Watchers, South Beach diet, calorie counting, fat gram counting, high personal training, Overeaters Anonymous,  and the PSMF physician-assisted weight loss plan.  

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