140forlife
Scared & Excited for the sleeve
Jul 28, 2009
Hello ! I live in Dallas and am scheduled for the VSG on August 19th. I am 32 years old, married and have one son who is almost 2. For most of my 20's, I was fit and stayed around 160 # but dieted all the time and exercised like a maniac. As I got older it became harder to keep up that pace and pregnancy just made it worse. Over the last 4 years, I have just lost control. I am at my heaviest now - 210. If someone could tell me that I would never gain another pound, I might be OK with my current weight. However, I am confident that I am on a downward spiral and headed for even more weight gain if I don't stop it now. I have PCOS, high cholesterol, fatty liver and just feel like crap! My eating is very disordered (not eating disorder) and I eat too much at most meals. I do not snack all day - but eat to get full...very full!What I want from this surgery is to feel good again about myself. I want to be confident in my clothes and enjoy shopping again. I want to be my son's beautiful mommy and not the fat one. While I know that my husband loves me, I want to feel sexy again for him. Finally, and perhaps, most importantly, I just want to feel better. I don't share that with anyone because I am too young to feel tired. However, I want to sleep all day and I never have energy. Lately, I have wanted to stay at home in bed instead of enjoying my life. I have too much to be thankful for and am ready to face the world again!
Yes, I am scared - not for the actual surgery but of my fear of failure? What if I still eat too much? What if it doesn't work? What if I let my family down? What if it works for 2 years and then I gain it all back? I am hoping that those with experience can help and guide me! I am ready to listen!
