anewsweetjessa
Where to start always the question ...Well I was born 33 yrs agot o a teen age mom 2pounds 3oz My mom and Dad Praying for me to live and to be honest I think thats the last prayer thats ever been said for me lol :( I had my first child at 15 following in the family tradition got married at 18 to a abusive man left him by 20 fell in love for the first time when I was 21 just to have him deported to canada 7 yrs into our bliss at the age of 29 I had my second child thats where the weight started pouring on I met a amazing man and we decided to try it out when I was 3 months pregnant I fell in love w him and he has raised Zander as his own we had our Second my Third Child all in a in a 32 month time I was pregnant 16months now I am just fat taking care of kids and wondering where I messed up on this cute thing where did Jessa go wish I could lift this big saggy belly off my legs and let my hips feel better everyone else seems happy but I really dont think I am anymore I hate to hurt I hate crying I hate being un social I hate ME I am almost 2 weeks shy of having surgery and all I seem to do is think and worry what happens when I am deflated more how do I deal w the saggy skin will it be as heavy as it is now will any of it tighten up Im going to be scarey with huge tears in my eyes I write this and no one notice the pain I guess thats a good thing
