week until pre op appt

Oct 20, 2010

so in 7 days i will be on the path of getting surgery i am happy and worried all in one. some of the reasons that i am worried is because there is always a risk when getting life changing surgeries. i am kinda worried that i won't be able to loose the weight like alot of the people i see on this site. i am worried my husband will think once i loose the weight i will leave him as he has already stated. i am worried he won't help me threw the process by changing his eating habbits at the house and won't make me stick to mine. i am worried i will have alot of xtra skin and that scares me the most. i have tattoos will i be able to ever wear a tank top with out feeling ugly cuz they look like crap. now for the many reasons i want this surgery and why i am excited and things i can't wait to do .... i can't wait to stand next to my best friends amber and traycee and not feel like crap because they are so tiny and i am huge. i can't wait to wear my husbands shirts to bed when he isn't home and i miss him. i can't wait to look in a mirror and be happy with what i see. i can't wait to go shopping in any store in the mall. i can't wait to be healthy enough to start a family. i can't wait to go to the gym and run with out my fat bouncing up and down and feeling stupid compared to all the soldiers in great shape around me. i can't wait to order food and have left overs because i didn't eat them. i can't wait to see how my family who always called me fat looks at and treats me with the changes. i could go on all day about what i can't wait for ... i hope to get a surgery date soon because this time next year i want to be happy and fit into at least a size 9 not a 18-24 !

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