Wow!

Jul 29, 2009

The wait is almost over.   I can't believe time has went so fast.  I found out my date Memorial Day weekend and August 4 seemed SO far away.  I was so disappointed and sad that I had to wait 10 weeks.  No more trips to the hospital until the big day.  I had final weight check and blood work today and I had my pre-admission testing yesterday.  I am down 21 lbs on Optifast.  I hope for a few more by surgery day but the surgeon's office was happy so I guess I should just be happy.  It's a good start and I feel much better already!

Now if I could just get people to stop asking me if I am sure about this.  Or if I want to change my mind.  NO I don't want to.  I have waited a long time and given it hours of thoughts and I am positive that this is the right decision for me.  Yes, I am motivated to lose weight now but how long will the motivation last?  Then I will just gain it back again plus more.   I can't take it anymore, I am ready to lose this weight for the last time.  I am ready to change my lifestyle.  Surgery isn't magic and I know I will still have to work hard the rest of my life and follow the "rules of the pouch".  But I know I can do it.  I am willing and ready to do this.  I am sick of eating like a fat pig and feeling like one.  I want to be healthy and a "normal" weight.  I believe that will feel better than any supposed comfort I ever received or thought I was receiving from food. 

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