bedfordd
I have just turned 52 and have decided that I am absolutely, positively sick of yo yo dieting and want to reclaim my individuality. Our egos plant the seed making us feel inferior. I have finally decided that I can not be me in this unhappy shell caused by my excessive weight.
I am going to cleanse my soul here. During my High School years, I never weighed over 135 and was so happy ... then my Father got sick. My mother's reaction to him being sick was saying to me "what am I going to do with you if your Father dies". Well, I ballooned to 185 pounds in what I felt was overnight and suffered from extreme depression, and have carried this discussion and weight problem ever since. My Father recovered and lived to be 87 years old, which was at least another 30+ years. I love him so dearly, that the scar never healed from my Mother's words. I just felt like she did not care about him or me at all ... everything was about her and I thought she was being selfish. Anyway, enough of that, but you see where the history of being overweight came from.
I am so high spirited when I am thinner. I enjoy laughing, movies, friends, boating, bull roasts, shooting pool, bowling, reading, but mostly the company of friends. When the weight piles on, I become withdrawn, however, those that know me treat me the same no matter what size I am. That is most important.
As time goes on and this gets underway, I'll introduce my "myspace" profile as well. I will upload photo's of me fat and thin and will share more.
Right now, I am looking to connect with others and share stories and experiences.
Be well all!!
BTW ... my Idol is Mae West!!!
I have 2 grown daughters, and live in Northeast Baltimore County.
