Ready for this to be over...

Oct 21, 2012

I was determined for this weekend to be a 'normal' one for the family.  I have been cooking all day -- not that I could enjoy any of it, but it helped to keep me busy and it's what I usually do on the weekends for the family.  I cooked breakfast, baked cupcakes for the twins to frost, then started on Sunday Dinner... It certainly helped to keep me busy and my mind off food and the surgery.  It was nice that even though I'm on the liquid diet, I can still enjoy cooking and not be dying for what they were eating.  Sure it looked delicious, but I was OK with only having my protein drink and 3 cups of chicken broth.

I am so ready for this surgery to be over and on the road to recovery!

This afternoon, I received a call from my friend, whom I didn't want to tell I was having surgery this Friday.  She didn't seem thrilled with the idea I was considering surgery, even said that I will just gain the weight back again, so I was procrastinating on telling her.  I didn't want another lecture or my feelings to be hurt... Well, she called today and the first thing she said was, "when are you having surgery?",  I was surprised she cared, but I was honest that it was this friday... and even told her that I was worried about telling her as she didn't seem approving of my decision.  She said although she thought I could do it on my own, she would support my decision if that's what I wanted.  I thought that was nice and made me feel so much better.  

I have done really well on the liquid diet..  losing 12 lbs!  Both my husband and neighbor hoped I could continue doing this and not have the surgery.  I wish I could stay on this and not need the surgery too... but the lack of food is torture!  I know I could lose 20-30 lbs., howver, it's not enough to get me where I need to be .. and I probably wouldn't be able to keep it off.

I just pray that my surgery goes well, there are no complications and I can come home next Sunday... 

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