Bonnibj
12 weeks down
Oct 05, 2009
It's been almost 12 weeks now (tomorrow) since my surgery. I've lost 43 lbs. and I feel so much better. Clothes that I bought several years ago, that didn't fit then (and I kept because I liked them) are falling off of me now. Love it!I kept all my "skinny" clothes when I got fat, I always hoped that one day I could wear them again. (even before I ever thought about surgery) I am giving away all my "fat" clothes though. I will NEVER go there again! I am so blessed to have been able to have this surgery and to have this wonderful chance to get back to my thin self.
I have had to do a lot of soul searching over the past few weeks. I'm trying to analize myself and determine just why I let myself get so overweight the past 7 years. When I met my husband, I was not exactly slim but I was not terribly overweight either. Since marrying my darling husband, I have balooned up to my weight before surgery, 211 lbs! Mike loves to cook. For the first 4-5 years of our marriage, we ate out almost every night. I was working for the first 3-4 years that we were married and then I got sick and haven't been able to work since. The pounds just packed on. I do not mean for it to sound like I am not to blame for my excess weight. I AM! I could have made better choices at resteraunts, I could have insisted for smaller portions when Mike cooked (he always serves my plate for me), and I sure could have walked around the neighborhood, done exercises, whatever it took to keep the weight under control. I didn't.
I give myself a small break here for the fact that I have been terribly ill for the past 3 years or so. I have been through all sorts of doctors trying to find out my problem and get some relief. It's been 3 years and they still haven't exactly diagnosed my problem. I still have good days and bad days and am still unable to work. Part of the reasoning for getting the surgery was the hope that it would help me feel better to have less weight on. I'm feeling some better but still have problems that would keep me from working full time. I can't stand for long, because of my back. I can't sit for long periods because of my back and my broken tailbone. If I get overheated or over extended I will get really weak and start throwing up if I don't stop immediately. There are still days when all of my muscles and bones just hurt all over. I have days when I feel like I have the flu--chills and fever for no reason at all. I wish I could find something to do that would help us out financially. It would have to be something that I could do on a project basis, so that on days when I feel like crap, I wouldn't have to do anything at all and then I could only work on the days when I feel okay for as long as I feel okay. We all want jobs like that--don't we!
Anyway, I've strayed off the subject. I have been doing great with the surgery and the diet. I only have problems when I eat too fast or eat the wrong things. I am learning about what is the right way to do things and I am planning to follow this forever! I still do some soul searching at times to try and determine why I let things get out of control for so long. The truth is, however, whatever the reason, I need to begin every day now with a new way of thinking and acting. I need to insure that Mike and I both are healthy. I want to be here for many, many years to come. I'm on the way!
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About Me
Augusta, GA
Location
21.3
BMI
Surgery
07/14/2009
Surgery Date
May 06, 2009
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