brenlee1965
I was sexually abused as a child & the fear of this happening again has caused me to think that if I kept weight on it would make me unnoticed by men. So I got heavier and heavier over the years. Hearing people tell me if I lost weight I would be pretty and the men I was with saying that I wasn't very appealing looking like I do (or) I was too f'in fat to turn them on. I realized that keeping myself in a state of FEAR and not losing the weight and being unhealthy is just allowing others to maintain control over me. I decided to take control and hense the checking into this surgery after years and years of failing at diet programs and diet fads. Gaining more than I lost over & over again.
Now, I am currently in the process of completing the "pre-surgery weight loss" stage. I have completed the medical things.....EKG, Blood work, chest Xray, Ultrasounds of my internal organs, Drinking that horrible liquid while they take pics of me drinking, EDG or is it EGD (I have to do another one because of the bacteria they found in my stomach; met with the NUT and the Surgeon (2
times).....I have lost 10 pounds so far and another 8 to go & must be done in 2 weeks.
Bren
