caliwaiingurl
Like most I have sruggled with my wieght for most of my life. I come from obesity on both sides of my family. As a kid I was always bigger (i am hawn/samoan and everything else) My family and I lived in socal till I was about 10 and we then moved to hawaii. That was great in hi. we did all sorts of water activities, hiking, any kind of outdoor stuff you can think of we probaly did. So I worried about wieght like any normal teen. If I had something special coming up I would skip meals and be in a smaller size by the week-end.(Doesn't work anymore :( ) Then I met my husband and for the first time in my life I felt really gorgeus. This man loved me for ME. He saw ALL of me not just the shell but the whole package, what was inside! At tyhis piont I was the smallest of my life 178. I was happy and actually OK with my body. Mind you according to those stupid charts in the doc's office I was still 15-20lbs. overwieght. I didn't care. He loved me for me!! This feeling of not caring lasted for about 3yrs. During this time my mom had bypass lost her wieght and had encouraged me to look into it. I thought I'm not that "big" and I'm young I can do this on my own! Then I got pregs with my son. Can you believe I lost wieght? Well lost me and gained baby wieght. The day I delivered I was 4lbs. lighter than b4. So I continued to lose!! Got down 50lbs. Then family crap snet me into a pretty bad depression. Without my husband and son I don't think I would have made it out the otherside, with a better sense of who I am and what I amcapable of! Needless to say during this time I picked up 25lbs. in 1 month. Continued to gain th 50 I lost. Now pregs with my daughter I packed on more lbs. Now I had a presious little baby and was 110lbs. overweight. No morbidily OBESE!! I HATE that word with a passion!!!! 2007 So I work up the nerve to talk to my husband and of course he is awesome. His response "OK What do we need to do". Then I worked up the nerve to talk to my pcp. You see my pcp is a friend of ours. He's in his early 30's single, and have have been there when he is chkn out girls. Nice guy but can you understand my hesitaion? N.E.way I talked to him about a lap-band got the referral, called was told insurance wasn't going to cover it and my only option was bypass. I got scared, said I can do it myself and diet. Then procceded to gain 40lbs in a year. Bringing me to 2008 almost 1yr. exactly. I thought this is enough!! If I want my kids to grow with a healthly relationship with food I need to do something! So the journey BEGINS...
