carmeldip32
My story, where do I start? For as long as I can remember I have been the "pretty fat girl". When I was in grade school I was the biggest in the class, never feeling I fit in. By the time high school came around I was 14/16 and miserable. I didn't have any friends (by my own choice) and all I wanted to do was stay home and sleep. When you're a over-weight teenager life is not a bed of roses.
My twenties were spent on one diet or another, I would lose then gain it back, plus extra (we all know this part of the story) why the extra lol!! You name the diet I was on it; and while were at it - the word D-I-E-T... you are in fact killing yourself to been a smaller you. I would start working out and and even join a gym but that high would only last for a few weeks. Then I went to Culinary School, yes cooking school and lost 40lbs!! Then I came home and started working in the kitchens of some NYC most famous restaurants. I lost another 60+lbs thanks to diet pills, hey they worked so who cared about the shakes right?
So then I have my son and I gained 80lbs I had preeclampsia so I had a ton of water weight. Just 3 weeks after giving birth I had lost 45lbs and I was 240lbs. Over the next few years and one bad marriage I 100lbs!!!!! My all time highest was when I hit 346lbs. I was so sick of looking at myself, my ex told me I was fine and he made sure I always had chocolate cake in the house. I have lost about 50lbs on weight watchers but that took me 2 years!!
So now at just under 300lbs I'm taking the next step, the one I know is right for me. I have wanted to have this done a few years ago, but not so great insurance and the worry of my mother stopped me. I can't let her or anyone else tell me that "it's OK just be the person GOD made you to be". He gave us healthy bodies, and not high blood pressure and the beginning stages of diabetes!!! My sister-in-law has a motto "She who is brave is free" I believe this with my whole soul. I know the risk and I know if I don't attack this and make this change I'll die anyway.
Thank you for taking the time to learn more about me and life, I welcome all advice and help.
