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its been so long dont know where to start i am seven pounds away from my goal of 180 it has been a long road it got easier because i stopped weighing myself never really worked out just dancing and walking just looked @ some of my pics cant believe that was me have to give an updated pic i am thankful for the weightloss that was the easy part now i have to deal with why i got that big and the monsters that the weight was hiding they are a bunch of scary

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i think i have always been a diva big fat and all i am however tickled to death about the smaller diva that i am becoming the other i was sitting here talking on the phone looking a hot mess striped socks, pajamas that were way too big, scarf on my head but had the nerve to to be sitting with my legs crossed like a lady  to some it may be no big deal but to me it was wonderful because iwas leaning to the side my leg underneath wasnt being crushed it was pure easy and i have been doing so often that i didnt even realize 

            anyhow this weightloss thing drives me crazy i swear to God i feel like i am from the movie groundhogs day because i keep losing and regaining the same fucking ten lbs  i was weighing myself every day ony to be disappointed i gave up on that now im trying for once a month wish me luck cause i am a scale whore

This has been a wonderful year i have been blessed in so many ways I cant even begin to list them  i am 46 pounds away from my goal of 180 i am more happier than i have ever been i wish every one a happy new year and the best of luck in this weight loss journey

time does fly by when you are on the other side i am so blessed right now so i am -50 lbs in two months i lost 160 in dead weight (soon to be ex Husband) I am working i have not worked in two years and i have the love of my life once again my children are all in school even my little baby I am thankful for the little things i am excited for me who has been hiding to come out yes it is hard but she has always been ther and she is coming out.

so as far as exercise i walk it out !!!! I will tone soon I drink all the water  i love water my eating is a little low i am scared to dump it has happened and God knows i am not wit it i take all my meds and sleep well @ night i think thats all for now untill next time God bless .

                   Max THank you for all your time and support when i grow up i want to be just like you baby 

I am so happy that i have another chapter in my life to close now i can open another I have nothing major to report about the surgery it  went uneventful I have no  pain a little discomfort other than that i am fine I weighed in @304 the day of surgery came out @ 309 i wont count the weight gain cuz its just fluids look out world i am here!!!!

it about to be on yes ill be the first on the 8th have to be @ the hospital by 6 am i am so happy i could burst started the liqid diet today and it was not bad well next time i write i will be on the other side God bless

OMFG!!!!!!!! I GOT A DATE  I GOT A DATE  I GOT A DATE I GOT A DATE I GOTA DATE  JULY 8TH HAPPY INDEPENDECE TO MY SELF I THOUGHT THIS DAY WOULD NEVER COME I REALLY HAVE A DATE I AM SO READY JUST HAD TO SHARE THAT UNTIL NEXT TIME GOD BLESS

damn............. i cant take this much longer i have been on this trying to get a surgery kick for two years the easiest part so far was getting all my test done now i am waiting to finish up nutrition first it was like i needed three visits now i need four months straight omfg after i complete this last one i have to go to a nutrion class and one more support group then get a date then pre-op then its on so much has changed for me since i started this journey i quit smoking wow that was hard then it was easy, then i quit my husband that was hard and very stressful so i started to smoke again  smoked two packs gave it up again i had to, this man has stopped me from getting every thing that i have ever wanted in my life and by me smoking again because of his shit was another way he was going to keep me from getting  what i wanted again and that is not whats up! soon this waiting part will be over i am so ready for the real me to be born until next time God bless

well i am almost done i said that in my last post  i have one more support group to go to which has a $10.00 fee just in case there is a guest speaker WTF there was not one @ the meeting the night i went and there probably will not be one at the next one but they have my money just in case so i also have to go to a nutrition class that is a hour long i will travel two hours for an hour class wtf... any how i have six well four more lbs to lose so that i can have wls i am trying to get that wil power under control  i know i need to step my excercise up  i am trying to have a date by the middle of march and @ this point getting my jaw wired  shut is looking better by the second (lol) I am really looking forward to changing my life well right now i have nothing else to say until next time God bless!!!