chickie_mama
what makes me scared
Mar 14, 2009
i decide to write down some of the stuff that i feel is holding me back from having surgery. so here we go......
1- i don't have "vacation time" to spend in a hospital to recover from surgery.
WHY?- i have 3 kids. 1 takes meds for seizures and with that type of med you have to very consistent time wise when giving it. as a house rule i am the only one who can give his meds. also, i am almost neurotic about keeping meds out of reach of kids. god forbid a pill falls on the floor, the whole house goes into lock down mode complete with sirens and Sheppard released.
which leads me to my younger son. he turned 3 back in December. his behavior and temper tantrums are so out rages that when i went to apply for him to go to pre-k in September, the school suggested that he is not ready and try next year. i feel he may have ADHD but must go see a neurologist to confirm this. so he is a hand full and i don't want my husband to look after him because i aknow the kid well and i know what he is going to do before he does it. my girl is OK and don't misbehave at all.
2- what if i die on the table, or of an infection? who's gonna take care of the kids and my husband? then again, what if i die from something related to being over weight?
3- what if the surgery don't work? i know that any WLS is a tool and even after surgery i have to account for everything i eat. what if i fail to that?
i can go on forever thinking of things that make me scared, but i don't even have the time to write in my own blog!