chitownhoyos
My new life.
Oct 01, 2012
So I am currently almost 6 months out since I had my surgery. Well I am loving the fact that I have more energy and am losing weight I am having a hard time with life. I feel like the one person that should be supporting me every step of the ways isnt. so I am a twin and she had lap band surgery in 2007 and then was converted to sleeve I think in early 2011.Now she weighed about 400 lbs when she had lap band. From both surgeries she has lost about 150 lbs. Which is great! Now I didnt weigh as much as she did when I got sleeved so she had to of known that I was going to reach her current weight and possibly be smaller than her. Well I feel like with every pound I loose she hates me more. I am always trying to be supportive of her and helping her with her journey as well. Now she does somethings that she shouldnt be doing like drinks pop and doesnt watch her sugar in take. She doesnt drink any water. I just feel like that this should be a really happy time for me and I think I feel worse now then when I weighed 300 lbs. I feel like I am more alone now then I have ever been. I wish I didnt feel this way. I love my sister and I wish that I felt that back from her. Our mom is no longer with us and so I dont have that female to talk to. My sister would have been that person before I had this surgery. I want to be the person I know I should have been all these years but does that come at the cost of loosing my best friend my sister.
