Caroline Julian
November 27, 2006... I am down to 163 pounds and still going, i have achieved so many things in my life this past year. I finally came out of the house for the first time, it's been so long that i can't even began to remember how long i have been hiding myself behind these walls. I have allowed myself to be open to the public, haha...they cannot believe my before and after photo shots. Many have said to me that it must be my mom, because it does not look like me... i tell them of course you can't see me i was hiding behind all the fatty tissue. LOL...it's funny now that i can laugh about this, but boy it wasn't all that fun then. I had gone back to school in August to finally finish out my high school diploma, and guess what? it might not have been what i wanted but i sure got my GED. This was the proudest day of my life, above all else i have accomplished one of my dreams. Now i am currently enrolled for college, there is nothing going to stop me to live my dreams to the fullest. We are also going to Europe in March, we will be station in Bamburg, Germany for the next 3 years. I hope for those that are not feeling me yet, you will one day soon will realize life flashes right before us...don't waste it away with sadness and don't ever feel discourage, i was once in your shoe; always remember that... YOU ARE SOMEBODY SPECIAL GOD DIDN'T MAKE NO MISTAKE.
September 20,2006...Hello everyone it's been almost a year now, and my weight lost has been a tremendous struggle for me. I currently weight 173 pounds as of today. I have been droping my weight slowly, and i have discovered i have a thyroid so therefore it will be alot slower for me to lost. It's ok though...as long as i am not gaining weight...Right??? I now wear an 11, and depending on the size i still can wear a 14. I have been having problems of getting tummy tuck my insurance company believes is a cosmetic kind of way. It may be for some others, but i surely believe everyone case is different. Well i have met my goal, originally it was 180lbs...now it will be 140lbs. I won't be so hard with myself...haha. Well it's nice for me to keep updating my profile, and soon you will see a new photo of me.
October 5, 2005... as of this morning i weighted in 192lbs. Usually i would go for a walk around the neighborhood, but for the past couple of weeks now; i have been going to the gym with my friend Kay. I am not as embrassed as i was, i felted everyone was all eyes on me. Now i feel at home with everyone else. Kay has really played a great role in my life this past couple of months, as my supporter. My pants size had gone down from 22/26 to size 15/16...and at times i can wear 14 depending how it's made. I bought my first 4 pairs of pants last weekend, at the yard sale near home. I scream full of joy...my husband and daughter looked at me crazy, but they will never know how good i felt that day. I wanted to share this happiness with all of you...you have been my great inspiration, thanks alot.
Sept.10, 2005...things has been quite slow process for me this past month. I have only shed off about 5 pounds to be exact. I am ok though, everything will come in time. I am happy just to know i have keep it in tack.
July 26, 2005... It's been nearly a month since last update...for those who is unbeliever i have lost 52lbs in counting, isn't this great??? I have gone to my first check-up here in huachuca last week, so when the nurse asked me to step on the scale...i nearly scream out of the top of my lungs...i think i scared her half to death. LOL...LOL...who cares right??? I feel so good about myself right now...my goal from the very beginnning was 180lbs, although i know i have more than that to lose...but i am so proud i am down to 20lbs of my goal. So everybody have faith and believe and it shall come to you. I miss my support group in fort polk, i hope to find one here as great as it was for me there. I MISS YOU GUYS GREATLY!!!! And i hope you all are doing well, keep in touch...till next time.
JUNE 23rd, 2005...HI EVERYBODY!!! I know it's been awhile since the last time i have updated...but i have recently moved to the state of Arizona. We are currently stationed at Fort Huachuca, and it's beautiful here...but it's a small place to be at. Well as far as my weight drop, i have lost 36lbs. I would of expected alot more by now, but i believe i just don't have any patience at all. It has been a slow transformation for me, i was beginning to think maybe this does not work for me like most does. Slowly but surely, but most part i truly believe that a tummy tuck would help alot...i have so much belly pouch and it's sagging. GROSS RIGHT??? but in time it will be successful. My only concern is here that this post does not have a surguen to see me, i have to travel somewhere in tucson or phoenix to see and visit a doctor. I am in search for anything here near by, so hopely i will succeed. Well everybody it's nice to be back, i will keep posted more often...and good-luck to all.
APRIL 19TH, 2005... I have sucessfully lost 25lbs. I don't exactly know how many inches i drop, but my clothes fits. It was pretty crazy because i use to hold my breath just getting into my pants, and hopely the zipper don't go rolling down...lol. Seriously though somedays, i look at myself as of gaining weight (it's a mind thing i know, have to work on it). My goal for myself is 180lbs, so i have 75lbs to lose. I know one day at a time...i get so impatient at times, but i have to remind myself. Well my family and i will be moving to Arizona soon, so i will be in and out in here...well keep you updated though. GOOD LUCK EVERYONE, AND MAY GOD BE WITH YOU!!!
MARCH 29TH,2005...HELLO EVERYBODY IT'S BEEN AWHILE SINCE I LAST UPDATED. I KINDA BEEN GOING THROUGH SOME TRUAMA HERE. I WAS HOSPITALIZE LAST MONDAY EVENING AND RETURNED HOME ON SATURDAY MORNING. I ENDED UP IN THE EMERGENCY ROOM...I WAS EXPOSED TO KIDNEY AND BLADDER INFECTIONS, IT WAS PRETTY BAD. ALL IS WELL NOW...AND GRADUALLY WALKING MORE AND MORE EVERYDAY. I HAVE LOSTED A TOTAL 20LBS SINCE THE SURGERY...IT'S BEEN PRETTY AMAZING. I MEAN I CAN'T REALLY TELL, ONLY WHEN I PUT ON SOME OF MY SHIRTS AND PANTS...BUT MY HUSBAND KEEPS TELLING I AM DROPPING. SO I MUST SAY, IT'S GOOD TO HEAR THIS. WELL THIS IS ALL I CAN SAY FOR NOW, UNTIL NEXT TIME. GOOD RIDDANCE!!!
HEY EVERYBODY I AM BACK...TODAY IS MARCH 15TH,2005. I HAVE BEEN HOME SINCE SUNDAY. THE SURGERY HAD GONE SUCCESSFUL, BUT OVERALL IS A SLOW PROCESS RECOVERY. I HOPE I HAVE A HEALTHY ONE THOUGH...ALL THINGS MAY BE PAINFUL NOW, BUT I KEEP TELLING MYSELF THAT NOW I CAN MOVE FORWARD TO A NEW AND BETTER LIFE. IT'S A MIRACLE I GOT THIS FAR, BECAUSE I KNOW FOR SURE GOING ON THIS LIQUID DIET IS MORE HARDER THAN SAYING IT, OR ANYONE TELLING YOU. THIS IS A COMMITMENT YOU MUST BE READY FOR, AND MAKE SURE THAT THIS IS WHAT YOU REALLY WANT; NOT NEED. IT'S AMAZING I WEIGHTED IN 284 BEFORE THE SURGERY, AND SUNDAY I LOST 6 POUNDS IN 4 DAYS...MORE THAN I CAN DO IN A MONTH. HAHAHA!!! I WILL BE GOING TO SEE MY AFTERCARE ON THURSDAY MORNING @10AM, WILL SEE THEN HOW MUCH I LOST SO FAR IN A WEEK. WELL I JUST WANTED TO KEEP YOU GUYS UPDATED...UNTIL NEXT TIME.
AS OF MARCH 4TH, 2005 I GOT A CALL TODAY FROM THE CLINIC NURSE HEIDI OF COURSE...THEY HAVE A SURGERY DATE FOR ME. IT WILL TAKE PLACE ON MARCH 9TH, 2005. SO KEEP YOUR FINGER CROSS FOR ME...HOPELY THIS WILL BE IT. I WILL KEEP YOU POSTED...PRAY FOR ME.
AS OF MARCH 1ST, 2005 I WAS INFORMED MY SURGERY FOR TOMMORROW WILL HAVE TO BE RESCHEDULED AGAIN...IN A LATER TIME AND THEY CANNOT GIVE ME A DATE AS OF THIS TIME. I AM SO ANGRY RIGHT NOW THAT, I DON'T THINK I CAN SHED TEARS RIGHT NOW. THIS HAS BEEN NOTHING BUT INCONVINCE FOR ME. I TOOK MY DAUGHTER OUT OF SCHOOL SO SHE CAN ASSIST ME, WITH HER SIBLINGS...AND NOW MY HUSBAND HAS TO ARRANGE HIS LEAVES DATE ALSO. AND THE ARMY IS PRETTY SOAR WHEN IT COMES TO GIVING HIM THOSE OFF DATES, THEY DON'T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT NOTHING. I AM SO SORRY, IF I OFFENDED SOME OF YOU...BUT I AM THE ONE THAT IS SITTING ON THIS HOT SEAT RIGHT NOW. I HAVE BEEN PREPARING MYSELF FOR THIS LAST MOMENT, AND NOW THAT I HAVE THE STRENGTH TO FOLLOW IT THROUGH...I JUST FEEL LIKE IT'S ANOTHER LET DOWN FOR ME. GOD BLESS MY SOUL RIGHT NOW, BECAUSE I AM BEYOND ANGIER. WELL I GUESS I JUST WANTED TO KEEP YOU GUYS UPDATED, WHO EVER LISTENING...EVEN THOUGH I STILL DON'T HAVE ANYONE TO SUPPORT ME IN HERE. WELL I BETTER GO BEFORE I SAY THE WRONG THINGS HERE.
As of February 24th, 2005...on the 15th of Feb. my pre-op was rescheduled on the 22nd of Feb. and my surgery date had moved back on the 2nd of March. On Tuesday it was pretty crazy i was in the hospital for 6 1/2 hrs. preparing for the surgery next week. They had me running around that hospital like a chicken with the head cut off. Paperworks,MRI,EKG,CHEST X-RAY, AND BLOOD WORK. And on the way out stop by the pharmacy to pick up FLEET (laxative) for the day before surgery. On Monday i cannot eat anything, just clear liquid (from soup to drinks i choose). I am very anxious...and the closer it gets i am excited but nervous. So far so good...will update when i get a chance. WISH ME LUCK, this will be my last time until after the surgery.
As of February 7th, 2005...i have finally waited long enough for my surgery date...i have spoken to my nurse on friday, my surgery is schedule on February 28th. On the 15th of February i am schedule to see my doctor for pre-op, and i will be meeting with the rest of the staff...and advised me of the procedures. Well to let you all know i have waited for 7 months, at first it was a long wait...but now it seems like everything is going so fast. I am so happy and again nervous. Hope and pray for me!!! I will keep you updated.
I just wanted to give you guys an update as of February 2, 2005...as of 28th of January i received a phone call from my surgeon pa Heide, and updated me of the latest news. So far i have not gotten an actual date of the surgery, but in the positive side she had advised me that it is near. She has given me the month of February for the actual surgery, but not yet a date when. Patience is a virgue!!! boy does it stink...hahaha. I have to be honest here, i am scared out of my a**. I have not prayed so much in my life...jk. I am so excited of the new up coming year for me. This is an honor for me, and at the same time i have the greatest doctor of the world. And i hope and pray my recovery will be at best.
Just wanted to let you all know that i had another consult with Dr.Shapiro on the 31st of August, everything had gone great. He was more relax this time, and so was i. He was able to answer my questions, and provided me with a direct answers. Well as far as for him to referred me outside to be seen with another doctor, was not avaible option for me. So therefore i have been place on the waiting list. He gave me between December or January, but won't give me an actual date yet. So i am hopelessly anxious to see this through.
