I was approved!!!
Jul 16, 2009
I was approved and I am getting excited and scared. I can't believe it is actually going to happen. I can't wait to be smaller. I just have to focus on that now instead of the actual surgery because thinking of that makes me very nervous!!
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Crazy Emotions
Jul 13, 2009
Okay my emotions are going crazy. I am feeling pretty depressed and I feel like a failure because I was not able to do this on my own. Maybe I didn't try hard enough. Those are the feelings that I struggled with every time I thought about this surgery. That is what has made me wait until I am 374 pounds to do something about it. But I can't help but have those feelings. I hate waiting for surgery. At least after surgery I will have crazy emotions and will be loosing weight. I just want to feel better and be able to move around easier. I really am looking forward to loosing the weight but I struggle with these crazy emotions every day.
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Waiting for insurance
Jun 26, 2009
Wow the days are just flying by. I can't believe that in almost 1 month I will start loosing this fat that I hate sooo much. I am actually getting kind of nervous but I think it is because so many people hate this surgery. I have all of the stuff for my approval done and I just have to wait until my coordinator gets it all. My 6 year old is sooo excited that his mommy is going to be skinny. He talks to me a lot about me loosing weight. My 17 year old daughter told me that she has been afraid all of my life that I would die because I was overweight. Maybe that is what he is going through.
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I have a date!!!
Jun 05, 2009
I am so excited because I finally have a surgery date. I really can't believe it. I am so happy that I will finally get this done. I have been thinking about this for more than 3 years and I am finally ready. I can't wait to be able to walk easier. I can't wait to be able to fit into seats better. I can't wait to be able to go to an amusement park with my 6 year old. I can't wait to be able to go see a broadway play again without feeling like a squished sausage. I can't wait to do everything that I want to do without worrying about my weight.
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My 1st post
Mar 20, 2009
Well this is my 1st post here. I am currently in the process of meeting my insurances qualifications for gastric bypass surgery which includes a 6 month doctor supervised weight loss. I will have my 3 month meeting with my doctor on Monday so I have 3 more to go. I must say that I keep going back and forth in my mind about getting the surgery. I am scared to get it but I am more scared to stay at 370 pounds. I have a 5 year old and I want to be there for him. I also want to be able to enjoy life with him like I enjoyed life with his older brother and sister. I used to take them to the beach, water parks, amusement parks. Right now I couldn't even think of doing those things. I want to have fun again. I also want to stop removing myself from my past. Anytime that I get a picture of myself I erase it off of the camera. I don't want to see myself it is too hard. I recently heard of someone who passed away following gastric bypass surgery and that really scared me. I know that I have a great surgeon though and I really do trust him. 3 more months to wait and then we will see what happens!!!
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