Frustrated

Jan 21, 2009

I honestly thought that I would have a date this week. Perhaps, I am really getting ahead of myself. Everything else had been going so quickly and smoothly and all of a sudden she tells me it's going to take like two to three weeks for insurance approval!!! I think that because I have been so close to surgery that my weight has been extra uncomftorable these past couple of weeks. I am not expecting surgery to be a quick fix or anything, but I honestly believe in my heart that all the problems I do have are attributed to my weight. Everything else in my life is wonderful it's just me being uncomftorable with the way I look. I know I need to be patient, but being patient has never been easy for me. Honestly, I really want my surgery to happen in February or sooner. I highly DOUBT that will be a possibility and that is what I think I'm stressing the most. My sister is getting married in May and I wanted to have as much time to prepare before the wedding as possible. I want to be able to eat somewhat normally by the time of her wedding I just hope I can at least be 6 weeks out. Maybe I just need to take a chill pill and get my mind off all of this. I can't change anything right now, so I'm just going to calm down. AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hope that either time goes by really really really fast or that I can just relax until that day comes!

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