Week 3 - could be better

Jul 30, 2009

As I sit - no, not sit.... As I lay sprawled out on my sofa (so as not to irritate my port) I think to myself for the first time since surgery , "what have I done?"  

I love the band itself!  With no fills I feel restriction, what else could a girl ask for?  But the port, the port is the bane of my existence.  I swear if I get up off this sofa the wrong way it's feels like it's tearing my insides and the wave of pain is so bad sometimes I just want to cry  I hope to God this doesn't last forever, I don't think I could deal with it.  

I also have been crazy nauseous for the last two days.  It was to the point I called my surgeon and got a prescription which helped a lot.  Not sure what caused it, maybe I ate something that didn't agree with me.  I had about a spoonful of rice Wednesday  afternoon before I started feeling sick, so I blame that.   My worst fear at this point is throwing up.  I don't know how it works!!  If I have nothing in my top pouch I'll just dry heave.  I don't want to ever ever ever throw up.  I'll do everything I can to avoid it.  

On a positive note, my scale is starting to move again.   I hadn't lost any weight in like... 9 days.  I knew that when I started eating real food I could gain, but I never expected a full stop.  I think my body might be adjusting now. 

I hit my first goal today, under 290lbs.    I've decided that every 10lbs is a new goal in my list because I am going to have to work hard for every single one of them.   Despite the stall I am still happy -  23lbs in a little over a month is not too shabby :) 

Alright off to bed.  Hopefully week 4 will treat me better than week 3. 

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