djmissa
Well, this is my story. I am 29 years old. I have a 9 year old son, Matthew and have been married for 9 1/2 years. Before I got married and had my son, I was very happy with myself. I thought I was a good size and got a lot of attention. I was around 135 and a size 6-8 before I had my son. When I came home from the hospital I was 185lbs. I felt pressure from everyone that I didn't eat enough and I was "eating for two". Then everyone told me that is was water weight and I would lose the weight. Well, I didn't. When I was 22, I was pregnant with my 2nd child. I didn't gain as much weight as I did the first time but I was really sick. I had a stillborn in my 8th month of pregnancy and it was devistating. I got really depressed and over the course of the next 7 yrs I have been up and down with my weight. I have been on every diet imaginable and gain the weight as quick as I lost it. I am currently 224 lbs and I go up every year. I just wanted to know when enough is enough. I have a family history of obesity and I love my mom dearly but I do not want to weight over 300lbs. She is fine with being the weight that she is but I am miserable. It just seems like every year was "my year". This was my year to be healthy and feel comfortable again. But the years came and went and I am at the heaviest that I have ever been. I feel like my 20's I should have been having fun, but instead I was so worried about my weight that I spent most of my time on trying to lose weight. My sister-in-law had the surgery around 3 years ago and everytime I see her, she is so energetic and loves to go out and enjoy herself. When I first heard she was going to have it done, I couldn't believe it. I just thought, well maybe she's on the wrong diet, or she's not getting enough exercise. I didn't think the surgery was the answer. Boy, was I wrong. That's the only thing that did work. She is healthy, eats well and looks great! So, I went ahead and did some research on it. When I found this website, it was exactly what I was looking for. A place where you can go and talk to people that have had it done and for people that were in the same position that I am in. I didn't feel alone in my journey. My only concern now is that I will get approved. I am doing everything I need to like my 6 month weight management and getting all of my tests and everything completed. My doctor is wonderful and my PCP even thought it was a good idea. There have been people that are against me having it done but I think it is more on their lack of knowlege about it. I am sick of hearing people saying that I am taking the easy way out or that I am not big enough. That is why the "lightweights" message board is great. It is for people just like me and I love it. Well, all I can do now is keep my fingers crossed and look forward to enjoying my life again!
