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Well it is has been 14 weeks now and I am down to 370lbs and feeling great even though these last two weeks my loss has slowed down I do believe my body is catching up and adjusting well. The mental struggles are my biggest challenge and I mean  it is a struggle. Losing 118lbs is great and wonderful I know but, daily I kick myself for more, knowing that I have only so much time before it will get more difficult to lose. I am currently searching for a support group to join and that has been more difficult than I imagined, and I am afraid that I may not make a good connection.

No one has ever said that my goal was unattainable except me, isn't that strange, how we can be our own satotager!

My mind plays games with my emotions , I often forget who is in charge, and my self esteem is ignored. wow that was strange to type. I am so thankful for this tool and pray that i succeed and keep it positive!

My first post-opt visit went well for me today and I am happy that the tubes have been removed. I came home and napped without worrying about pulling on them or damaging something. I did weigh 21lbs less than the day of my surgery and brings my total to 50lbs in eight weeks. I feel so much better and have been instructed to stop all meds since they are no longer needed.

Well i think everything has gone as planned, the pain was minimal and sleeping in the recliner has gotten old and I plan on sleeping in my bed is starting tonight. I was left with two drain tubes and they seem to be my focus now and looking forward to Tuesday to have them removed, I am more uncomfortable being limited to daily task and find it harder to adjust to liquids only while not able to do much, too much idle time. But I know this is part of the recovery and the first chapter in this new book I have checked out of God's library.

I have been taking all of my supplements, and mean I am loaded with more good stuff than ever. I have been getting all of my water in take, even a little more than directed, including protein drinks with no problems. Post-op day six I even introduced a pouched egg and some rice pudding with no problem. I have exhausted all the build up gas with regular bowel movements and I am surprised how my mental state has stayed positive through out this process.

I did cheat and had a boiled shrimp that my wife was eating, even though I only chewed it and then spit it out, It removed the temptation and satisfied the taste buds. It does not feel like I am deprived of anything and I feel satisfied and it seems as if my hatred of food and what it does to my body is starting to fade away. I am thankful to be able to find some peace with my food addiction and with God's help I can make it each day!

I wanted to share with you that I am home and doing well. The Surgery went well and as planned, the first night I spent in ICU, they were concerned about my breathing and blood pressure but neither posed a problem so I got my regular room the second night. I remember taking a lot of pain meds and being awoken every thirty minutes to be poked, tested, or just woken to find out how I felt. LOL   I have seven portholes in my belly with two with drain tubes, I will have the tubes taken out on next Tuesday so no Memorial Day walks on the beach for me, I am thankful that my Dad was able to give me a ride home since he drives a full size truck and I did not have try to fold in half to get into my wife's Toyota car.   I am drinking water flavored with kool-aid or jello (ice cubes) 4 oz every thirty minutes and having chewable vitamins, jello cups, and popsicle sticks, every four or five hours after my pain meds wear off. I am thankful to God of NO COMPLICATIONS thus far and everything has been exactly as planned.
Praise God!

Well had my last pre-surgery surgeon office visit, made all of the necessary plastic swipes and multiple signatures, got my receipts, doctor reviewed all the documents, and then at the last minute, after I ask what to I do about my blood pressure pills the first few days after surgery?, he made me visit a pulmonary doctor and agree to let her administer the right meds for my blood pressure while in the hospital, add $750.00 to what I had planned on spending today. I was a little nervous that something would go wrong this close to the actual date. I was concerned that maybe the credit  arrangements would have a glitch, or the surgeon would discover something missing in the folder,  earth quake or flood would occur today.

Both office visits ended peacefully and no one got hurt. LoL, It did seem as if everyone else I came in contact with the rest of the day would irritate me, I was going through the motion but felt real detached and unsure of each decision. I was not comfortable at all until later this evening a family member called and wanted to offer some money to help offset the cost of having to be a self pay. My family has been very supportive and often inquire about my decisions and often ask for updated information. They promise to Pray and visit while at the hospital and wish only the best on a speedy recovery.That did make my day brighter and helped ease some of the gitters.

I am posting for the first time on any site about my thoughts on weight loss issues. I am anxious about my Vertical Gastric Sleeve scheduled in 8 more days. I have quit smoking about 4 days ago to be sure my lungs have two weeks to breathe the best I can before the surgery. I have had the past two months to concentrate on my eating habits and I have been substituting whey protein powder drinks for mid day meals and have adopted the Adkins diet as well, I have dropped 35 lbs and feel a lot better already. I did ask on a form yesterday about other men having the VGS who post here trying to link to a group of support and sharing. I was happy to get a half dozen responses and some have accepted the friend request.