Ok so 79 more days to go until a new chapter begins....am I excited? ABSOLUTELY....a little scared but like anything I will get over that quick enough.  I am currently single and have been since February when my ex broke up with me.  It came out of no where and I was totally blown away when he did it over the phone.....or should I say a text message.  When I spoke with him he had said that I was a great girl and that we were better off as just friends.  I spoke my mind and then asked the question that I honestly already knew the answer to.  "Is there someone else"...silence and then a very low, raspy yes came through the phone.  My heart felt sore...I really cared for this man and I felt so used and just plane sick to my stomack.  I could have decked him!  I am a fabulous and smart and an overall good person...yet I m FAT!.  I understand things a lot more clearly now and at times it angers me....how can you write someone off just because of weight.  When he met me I was big and I m still big.  When we were supposed to go out and meet friends they would be a no show or something would have come up....whatever...I know the real reason....he was that shallow and embarrassed by what I looked like that he didnt want his friends or family to see me.  I asked him directly because I can be very direct and he deny's it...however my gut is telling me something different.  ONE THING TO LEARN....LISTEN TO YOUR GUT FEELINGS! 

So last November I made a decision for myself.....stop feeling sorry and move on and do what you've been thinking about doing for years.  So I made that appointment with my GP and sat down and said I need this and what are you going to do to help me achieve this?  He looked at me stunned....He had been totally against this surgery for years and so he signed the form and sent them in for me.  I was shocked it was that easy in convincing him...but I think he could tell that I was not letting this one go.

So when things got held up back in February due to a car accident....19 year old text messaging while driving is never good...hit me from behind and I was off for a month with whiplash!  I had a lot of time on my hands to just collect me thoughts and think a lot of things over.  I m so done wearing this FAT suit and I m SO DONE with how I have been treated since.....well as long as I can remember.  Although it has gotten much worse as I get or I should say "got" heavier.  Not anymore my sista's and brotha's lol....I refuse to allow it to continue and they can kiss my round tush if they dont like it...soon to be smaller yet round tush!

So when I saw my ex a couple weekends ago out for breakfast with a twig that had the face of a mule...oh please she may be skinny but she is UGGLY.  Well whatever floats your boat I guess...but common I know I dont have a picture up on my profile but I am thankful that I take after my STUNNINGLY Gorgeous Mother!  *THXS MOM*  Even though he didnt see me I deffinitely saw him smoochin that mule in the parking lot....well I felt angry at first and then I thought heck I can loose weight but its gonna cost her a small fortune to fix that FACE....ouch I am mean lol.  But they both deserve it....I found out she had been sleeping with him while we were still dating.....they are both TRAMPS and I m so better off. 

 Ok so enough about them….well almost….I know once I do loose some weight and start feeling even better about my self image I am gonna flaunt all that I got and right in front of the two of them as well as a few other people who haven’t been so nice over the years.  SO the countdown is ON BABY…79 days to go!


Bye for NOW,

Fallon xox