funkysista613
Almost 3 weeks from surgery...
Jun 25, 2010
Wow, I can't believe that this coming Monday will make 3 weeks since I've had my surgery. I've been trying to keep up with my "mind over matter" belief which I truely believe in, but it's been hard. FOOD IS EVERYWHERE & I MISSSSSSS IT!!!! This pureed diet has been hard, especially since I've been recovering at my dad/brother/sister in law's house where everything is food and the food looks scruptious! There are some days that I float along beautifully being satisfied with my yogurt and invented pureed sensations, but then there are those many days that I just feel like crying because I want that damn bagel that my father is eating! Also, having a 7 month year old nephew who is eating the same baby food as I am doesn't help. I thought it would be cute to be eating the same foods as he, but it's more depressing than fun. Watching my family sit down to dinner with a gigantic bowl of mac and cheese while I have my 1 slice of cheese has been hard. "WHY IS IT SO HARD? IT'S ONLY FOOD", I ask myself... >>sniffle sniffle<< I know that sunny days are just around the corner but I've been seeing so many cloudy ones. I thought that I would be able to be emotionally stronger than I have been and I feel like I've disappointed myself. It was fun to go shopping with my friend yesterday and dream of the day that I could fit into that splendid BCBG dress that dazzled before my eyes... but when I came home I still couldn't help thinking about how much I craved a bagel with cream cheese.So...after all my venting, I have to say that I start solid foods G-d willing on Monday and I am so very much looking forward to feeling like a normal person again and not like my 7 month old nephew (even though it is normal for 7 onth old babies to be on pureed food). I fear the trial and error of these foods and hope that I'll be able to tolerate them because I pathetically miss food.
DOES ANYONE ELSE ALSO FEEL THIS EMOTIONAL TUG-OF-WAR?
