GodisGood
Where do i begin??? i was "HEAVY" my whole life... from birth... i was a bigg baby... my parents tried all diets, nutritionist's, i mean all diets you name em, i tried em... they went good at first... lost 14-15 lbs, and then just gain, gain, gain... it was horrible... As a kid growing up, i was the black sheep in the family... i was the only "fat" one... i wasn't very interactive with them... i'd spend holidays in the TV room of their houses... i remember feelin like cryin all the time, cause i felt no one loved me cause i was "Fat" and its like no one cared i wasnt interacting with them... it was hard... 
School had its ups and downs... i was insecure, so people attack "easy prey" and i was the easiest... cause i wouldnt say anything back... i'd cry... but as i got older... i made some pretty good friends, who always told me i was BEAUTIFULL no matter watt... and my self esteem was up and down... i had my good and bad days... u know??? once i got to high school, it wasnt up there, but at least thats watt i made other people believe... i made funn of myself, before others did... but all in all, i wasnt made funn of... i hadd some very good friends... i SURVIVED!!! 
It was around 2003, i started thinking about having the Gastric bypass...
i knew it was what i wanted... and i was determined to gett it!!! it was around 2005, when i finally got some insurance... i picked a dr and was all ready to go!!! i had my pre-op tests done... til i received a phone call saying that my surgeon didnt accept my insurance... i was so upset... i gave up... i cried and got depressed... i felt ma dreams had crashed... 
God placed me in the job i have now... "Office Manager"... i was told no benefits... but 2 months into the job, we had a meeting and i walked out with insurance!!! yaiiii!!! God was opening doors for me left and right... as soon as i got the insurance, i started right away... lookin for Dr's... thats when God place Dr. "Demesvar A. Jean-Baptiste" in my path... i liked him from the first day... that and i was just so anxious to gett the surgery... i felt like it wouldnt happen... i had doubts.. i felt that at the last moment it would just all crash... i was told end of August, but little did i know my insurance would give me a hassle...
i was in this on my own... it was something i did on my own... no parents... so i wasnt sure what was goin on at times... me and my dr's office had a couple "misunderstandings"... but in the long runn, they did everything possible to gett me that surgery!!! and also their contract expired with my insurance on Dec 31!!! so i didnt have much time... but God knew watt he was doing... 
To make a Loooong story short, they huffed and puffed with my insurance and they gott me approved!!! yaiiiiii!!! it all felt like a dream when i received that phone call from Christina, saying "You got approved!!!" i was speechless... i didnt know what to do... little did i know my surgery was sooner than expected!!! i was scheduled for December 13, 2007!!! than there was a change in the schedule, so i was moved up to December 13, 2007 @ 7:30am!!! 
Excitement kicks in!!! as the nite before surgery came, i didnt know watt to do with my self... i was so0o happy.... my dream finally came true.... i was there.... but i still didnt believe it was happening until my surgery where done.... i had a feelin something was going to come up!!! 
December 10, 2007 (Laproscopic Gastric ByPass) last thing i remember was being in the O.R. and me asking the anestheciologist if that was going to make me fall asleep?! lol he said no its goin to relax u... yeah right!!! next thing i remember was saying Mariela surgery went great!!! its all done... and being in pain.... lol i woke up a few hours later, i was walking around the nurses station.... and had very lil pain... (gas pain) my incisions were small... i was so0o happy!!! Everything came out great!!! God is good!!! 
