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On Thanksgiving Day, I ran my fifth 5K, hitting my best time. I was feeling great, returning to work after an awesome holiday and preparing for my next 5K that upcoming weekend.  I had also started training for a 10K.  It had been a pretty epic year thus far.  I had surgery, lost over 110 pounds - my health was at it's best, my professional life was booming and, in general, I was happier than I'd ever been.

Then, the Monday morning after Thanksgiving, I was headed into work when a 15 passenger van lost control and caused a major accident - from which I was seriously injured, though thankfully not permanently. (And thank goodness no one else was injured or worse!)  The accident completely wrecked my vehicle and caused some significant injuries.  I had several fractures of my spine - compression and chip fractures - as well as herniated discs in my lower back.  I was hospitalized for a week, unable to walk for that week.  They finally fitted my for a back brace which I had to wear for over two months.  Needless to say my exercise and running regimen came to a screeching halt.  It took a few weeks for me to be able to even wash myself.  It was a sudden, terrifying, demoralizing experience and I fell into a pretty rough depression.  

I am thankful that given everything I am able to heal and that the doctors were always positive. Losing all that weight - having my blood pressure normalize, no longer being a diabetic - all of that saved my life, without a doubt.  Being fit and healthy ensured that I will be able to heal and come back to 100%.  I was rocked pretty hard for those 3 months and am struggling now to get back on track.  I gained nearly 20 pounds back, my body fat % went up a little.  I lost all muscle definition and core strength.  Physical therapy is both great and at the same time depressing because it's a pretty epic struggle with back pain and wanting so badly to get back to where I was.  They've finaly cleared me to return to the gym, though completely no-impact only.  I started swimming, which has been amazing.

All in all, I'm still struggling and I'm trying not to beat myself up about the weight gain.  I vacillate between angry, sad, determined... Angry at the young kid in the van, angry at myself for letting my old demons come back to haunt me... 

I guess I'm just using this space to vent and to try to get myself back on track... Back to MyFitnessPal for tracking, back to using my FitBit.  Getting my diet back on track - protein, protein, protein.

I did this already with success.  I'm still 90+ pounds down from my highest.  I can do this again.  I will do this again.

I've now reached 110 pounds lost! That is more than my sister weighs haha I go around saying "I lost a Sammy" lmao  And my mom keeps saying "Half-a-Hana" lol  The feeling is incredible.  I'm buying size 10 outfits, medium dresses... I'm working out and running a lot and just generally enjoying life so much more than before.

This past weekend I went up to NY for a family wedding.  I hadn't seen a number of these people in a long, long time and the response was overwhelming.  Some people cried, they were so happy for me and my success and my good health.  I felt and looked incredible.  It was just an incredible weekend.  Below are a couple of before photos and the last photo is a small collage from the wedding!

November 2012

June 2013

May 2014 (4 weeks post-op)

September 12, 2014

September 27, 2014 (5 months post-op, 110 pounds lost)

HW (recorded): 301

SW (4/21/14): 271

CW (9/27/14): 191

32 years old

5'5"

Hey all,

I'm coming up on 5 months post-op and have been doing well and feeling great.  This past weekend I was invited to a wedding as a friend's plus one and I was so excited to be able to get dressed up and go!  I had to scramble to find a dress because I left my options back in Maryland and had to travel to NY for the wedding.  Being able to walk into Lord & Taylor Outlet and pick a dress of the rack without issues or problems was a crazy new experience and really was awesomely wonderful.  The coolest part was that it was a size 10!!! WHAT?!  

I'm having trouble uploading the photo here so please check my profile if you're interested in seeing the before and after.  The "before" photo on the left is from May 2013 - 300+ pounds, size 20/22.  The two photos on the right are from this past Friday, 9/12 - 193 pounds, size 10 :D :D

I felt amazing, danced all night and had such a blast.  When I put the photos on facebook, my friends and family didn't recognize me and showered me with compliments and love about how great I'm looking and doing.  I visited my grandma in NY and she cried and was so genuinely happy to see me in such good health.  It was a gloriously, emotional and happy weekend and I loved every moment of it.

I have another wedding in two weeks and can't wait to try on long formal wear and see what I end up with then :)

Stats: HW (at least officially recorded): 301 SW: 271 (April 21, 2014) CW: 193.2 (Sept 12, 2014) - 32 years old, 5'5"

My personal trainer just came by to take measurements and percentages - in the last year, on top of losing 96 pounds (so far), I've lost over 25 inches around my whole body and I've dropped over 8% in body fat just since May.

What a great way to start the day!!

Happy Thursday everyone!

I've never taken one of those "Look how much space I have in my pants" shots before haha I did this morning and check it out! How cool!

The blue top is from February of 2012, around 290 pounds, I think.  The right side is this morning, around 205 pounds :)

I'm coming for you onderland!

So I went out with friends this weekend.  Dinner, dancing... It was a fabulous time. 

But first, I needed to buy clothing that fit!!  So I went shopping.  I was able to fit into a pair of size 12 jeans from Style & Co that I got at Macy's and the top is a size 0 from Torrid :)

The side-by-sides really help me see the changes since my head is constantly playing tricks on me!

Purple dress - Nov. 2012 (probably around 300 pounds but unsure since I rarely stepped on a scale then!)

Green dress - June 2013 (definitely over 300 pounds)

Black peplum top - July 2014 (3 mos post op) (210 pounds - 30 pounds down before surgery, 61 down since surgery, 4/21/14)

I averaged less than 12 minutes a mile this morning... Considering this time last year, I took 25 minutes to walk a mile, I'm pretty flipping happy... I jogged/walked 2.8 miles in 30 minutes. Yay me! 5K, I'm coming for you!‪#‎bringonthemudrun‬ ‪#‎nowIneedtoworkonthesenoodlearms‬

Had you asked me last year if I would ever get excited about running or doing a 5K, I would have said NO, emphatically and unequivocally.  "I don't run unless something is chasing me."

Now, I'm training for a 5K, starting with a personal trainer to get my strength training going, starting yoga classes... It's a whole new Hana and I'm loving it.  Sleeverella and I are a match made in heaven :P

As I come up on my birthday - July 15th - I realize that I am over 80 pounds lost since my last one.  I might even hit 90 by next week!!  It's been such an incredible journey.  Not just with my weight and my health - it just seems to be my year!  Work is going well, my career is progressing.  I got a puppy that I adore.  My health is incredible - I'm on no meds (but for vitamins and supplements), I'm the lightest I've been in 10 years, my lowest adult weight.

I'm just incredibly happy, incredibly blessed.... just incredibly everything.

Follow me on myfitnesspal.com! http://www.myfitnesspal.com/user/hkabashi82/status

:)