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Tomorrow will be 1 week since having laproscopic gastric bypass. It has not been easy for me....not physically, I feel great - weak but great! It's the mental aspect. I am feeling depressed. Something I could never fathom feeling. I have WANTED this DESPERATELY for sooo long. But I can't get the protein in and I have incredible head hunger! I want to taste SOMETHING. My mind screams for a piece of toast or even a bite of peanut butter and jelly sandwich. I am embarassed to admit, I miss food......and it's only been 6 days!!!!! I am afraid I am going to fail and I am ashamed. I have even cried....alll for food. WTF? I feel like an addict!
I am holding on, and taking it day by day!

I went to meet with the surgeon today for the last consult before the surgery. He cam in and said hi...do you have any questions? I  said no and that was it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He said well I am excited to see your transformation and walked me to the desk to pay my copay. SOOOOOOO that was that!

Today I met with the dietician to start the protein diet. Then, I went to the hospital for my pre op stuff. A chest xray, an EKG, and some blood drawn. Everyone was very nice and all went smoothly. I really cannot believe this is happening!!!
After pre op I went to sign up for school. I have decided to start school full time in the fall...it;s like I want EVERYTHING all at once.

All I have left is the dietician class and then a meeting with the Dr. on the 25th.
Just a little over 2 weeks to go.
     Just a little not - for those of you going through the struggle and fighting with insurance - DO NOT GIVE UP !!!  This took almost 2 years to the day to get this approved , and everything is finally falling into place!

Enough babbling for today

I am so excited I cannot breathe 19 days feels like an eternity!

I went today and had an ultrasound of my legs to make sure there are no bloodclot - quick and easy - just a precaution. Also have my other pre op appointments set up and then du du duuuuuunnnnnn Surgery at 8am 7/28

The Dr.'s office said that I could have my surgery on 7/28/08????????/
Is that possible - it's onle 3 weeks away!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So here I am - it's  8:30 am (today) and I am in the dr office getting the wonderful allergy shots and my cell phone goes off and scares the crap out of me. Everyone I know (and that's not alot of people) knows that I am usually at work at thid time and my daughter is still comatose in her bed, and will be for at 4 more hours, so I immediately think the worst! I answer the phone and the caller says " Ms. Heidi Mcrae? This is Donna, sorry I didn't get back to you yesterday, but I called your insurance company today first thing......and you......are......APPROVED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Now i have been callin this woman like crazy - and I can't believe it's finally happening! She said I have to wait for another girl to call with my actual surgery date ...and all the other stuff I gotta get done, but it looks like the date will be in mid August!!!!!
I am numb - I cannot wait - its has been almost exactly 2 years since I started this journey...and I have been through a lot of crap - but ohhhhh god I AM READY FOR THIS!!!!!!

Hey- did anyone see me dancing naked in the street this AM? LOL

OK STILLLLLLLLLL WAITING - and the info has been faxed 2x more and about 8 phone calls.

Ok so the Dr. office finally submitted everything to the insurance co AGAIN.....and I am trying not to get too excited....cause Y'all know I've been through this once or twice before........I have been doing this for 2 years!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wish me luck.........and if you see a fat naked lady  dancing in the street - you will know I got approved! :)

skipped last month......I GAINED weight !!!!!! So I was pretty depressed and mad at myself. I just had my final appointment ion 6/4708. I had lost 5.5 lbs. in may! That's ok, but with all the up and down in the 6 months it probably equals like a 2-3 lb loss in 6 months............I am sick thinking that I am going to be denied for not losing weight.
The Dr. office is getting everything together to submit (again) to the insurance......keeping my fingers cross and holding my breath!
On a good note, my Dr. - who preferred that I have the lap band is willing to submit all the codes to insurance for the bypass instead!