Nearly 11 months Post Op

Feb 28, 2009

So one week from today I will be 11 months Post Op.  It feels so strange and like my surgery just happened yesterday.  I weighed in this morning at 206lbs and to date I have lost 157 lbs.  I haven't lost a lot in the past two months, but I am still steadily losing. I finally started exercising. I walk my dogs at least 2 miles every day (unless the weather is bad). The only weeks I go less miles is when aunt flo is visiting. Which is another story in and of itself.  Since I was so heavy for so long, I didn't have my period for like 12 years.  I started when I was 11, only had it for 1 or 2 years and this month is the third month in a row I have had my period. It's exciting and makes me very happy to know that I am becoming "normal." I have my goal weight set at 150 lbs and lately I've been wondering if I will make it.  I think maybe that might be too low for me...but I don't know..I hope to get there, but I think losing another 56 lbs will take quite some time.  Maybe by my 26th birthday (January 3, 2010) I will be there. It sure would be fantastic. 

Lately I've been doing a lot of thinking and I am pretty certain that I want to have kids.  I've been undecisive for a very very long time and now I am sure that it will be a part of my future.  The only thing is that my husband has always been undecided and I haven't told him yet that I really want children.  I'm not planning on this year or even next, but definitely before I am 30.  I think I just need to feel like I have more purpose in life and being a mom will definitely give me that.  There is still a lot I want to do in life, but I am sure this is a step I want to take. The next step is telling my husband what I want and hoping he does too. If he doesn't, I'm not really sure what I will do or what will happen.  I will just continue to hope and pray that he'll want what I want...

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