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I have resorted to having a food disorder rather than using my tools. So I decided to come back to OH for support. I use laxatives and diet teas to help me control my weight now and if I don't stop this it could really be damaging to my health. The fact is that I know this is a problem and I am addicted to this but it is hard for me to quit. So I am going back to the thing that got me through my surgery OH.

Please help to get me back on track without the laxatives and diet teas!!!

I have been wanting to talk about me for the longest time, unliken others I have not always been heavy I started to gain weight after starting my family having chidren and then doing nothing to help myself lose the weight I became happy and lazy with my family, and by the way if I did not say this I have given birth to eight children whoch includes a set of twins, they range from 19-5 years old. I have been married for 19 years and being ever so happy in my marriage did not help my weight, there was always some type of food in the bed late at night. The a few years ago in 2006 I had my first heart attack and that still did not make me want to change my life style, then in 2007 I had my 2nd heart attack and that still did not make me want to change the change came when I  was told that I had type 2 diabetes and the thought that I could lose my limbs was an eye opener  and the changes begun I started to work out and take walks and watching what I was eating. My pcp then informed me that he had submitted me for the wls and I was good with that I  wanted to do what ever it would take for me to get the weight off and while I waited for the surgery I lose 30lbs and was taken off diabetes meds and I have not had to take them again.

I was 410lbs the last time I stepped on the scale it depressed med so much that I stopped looking at the numbers I know that I gained more weight but I refused to look. The things I went through I went to see the psych doc. who ordered me prozac and abilify and that still did not really help, but I kept working out and trying to get the weight down, and the day of the surgery I was 286lbs I had the surgery and it went very well thepain was very little and I have regreted it at first but now I enjoy the fact that I have lost a person and now I could sit in seats at the movies with the arms down and when I go out with the hubby I chose to sit in a booth, things are starting to look up OH and the clothes that I wear now are so great I went from a size 30-32 to a 22-24 I cant wait to get out of the 20's  and into the single digit sizes, I will kepp you posted on the changes in my life.

So far I am here and I have not canceled yet. I think that I will be able to go through with this. I hope that all goes wlet ell with the surgery as all of you have said, that you would do it all over again if you had to, i hope that I have that I have the same experience.

I will let all of you know how things go with the surgery real soon.

Thanks for all of youir kind words.